Rickys pov
It's been a year now. Chris have anything to do with me. If we have to be in the same room all he'll do is glare at me. I've lost everything, Luka, Chris, everything. As I sat down next to Lukas headstone I let the tears flow freely.
" soon my love, we'll be together again." I just can't handle it anymore. I slowly stood and made my way back to the band house. Everything continued on like normal. The birds Sang, children played and people laughed. I wonder how everything can be so normal when your life is in pieces. I left door closed behind me only to run face-first into Chris. I looked up into eyes as cold as ice and filled with hate.
"Watch where the fuck you're going Olson." I look down and mumbled a weak sorry as he shove past me nearly knocking me the floor. I sighed and ran up the stairs to my room.
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I lost out my window at the sunset. The guys were all either in their rooms or the living room playing video games. I sighed and stood up once the sun was almost down. Looking around my room I quickly grabbed my pocket knife and shoved it into my jeans. I grab the piece of paper and scribbled a quick note to Chris. As quietly as I could I shut and locked my door before walking down the hall only pausing to slide the new Under Chris's door. I ran down the stairs as quietly as possible only for Balz to be coming up them. He gave me a small smile.
"Damn Ricky no need to run."
I put my head down."whatever."
I made my way to the front door slamming it on my way out. As soon as I got off the porch I started to run taking the back way to the cemetery. I fell to my knees in front of Lukas headstone. I was tired from running the whole way here. I cried as I leaned My Back Against The Headstone and pulled by hoodie off.
" I won't keep you waiting anymore." I pulled the knife out of my pocket and flipped it open. " I'm sorry Luka. I know you wouldn't want me to do this but I just can't live without you."
I take a shaky breath before driving the knife up my arm from wrist to Elbow. I wince as I repeat the process on the other arm. I love the knife fall the the ground as I lean my head back and let my arms fall beside me.
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CHRIS POV
Our side as I walk to the house. Everyone was in the living room playing video games. All but Ricky. Just at the thought of him like that anger and sadness burst to life. I have my breath and made my way to my room only to find a note folded into a tiny square at my feet with my name on it. I roll my eyes picking it up and closing the door. Sitting down on my bed I open the note.
*note*
Chris,
I know you blame me for Lukas death, I blame me too. I just wanted to say you're still my best friend even if you hate me. It's time for me to be with my love again. Goodbye Chris. Tell the guys I'll miss them.
Sincerely,
Ricky
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Rickys pov
My body is numb and I smile as I love my eyes slowly close. Then nothing. Open my eyes and look around. I frown realizing I feel Wide Awake.
"Ricky, why did you do this."
I stood up and turned around at the sound of the voice I've waited so long to hear again. I smiled before I realized he was frowning. A deep sadness filled his eyes and I looked down.
"Luka.." I paused and walked closer." Ive missed you so much. I'm so sorry."
He took my hand and his employees the other on my cheek." Please, there is still time. Fight ricky. Fight for your life." His eyes begging me to try.
I looked down and shook my head.
"No.i finally got you back. I'm not letting you go again." I pulled him to me wrapping my arms around him as i placed my lips on his. Our lips danced together soft and slow until he finally pulled back and looked at mr with a small smile.
"Let us go home then."
He placed his hand in mine. As we started walking this beautiful blue light consumed us. Everything was better now. I had Luka back. We are both free. With his by my side i know i made the right choice.
THE END
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Fanfictionluka is chris motionless' little brother and ever since he first met the guitarist for motionless in white he has had a huge crush on him. the only one in the band that knows luka is gay is chris and he wants it to stay that way . what happens when...
