you make me feel alive (Ricky "horror" Olson boyxboy)

CHAPTER ONE: TOUR

this chapter contains some triggering material. if you are easily triggered you should not read the last paragraph. you have been warned.

haiii guys :3 yay a new chapter. i hope you guys like it <3

read on my children.

~pixxie~

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Luka's p.o.v

i groaned as i felt a body plop down on me. i knew it had to be chris because he is the only one who comes into my room.

"chris get you fat ass off of me!! i cant breath!!! SOMEONE HELP IM DYING!!!!!!!!"

i felt the bed shake as he jumped off laughing. i quickly sat up grasping my chest where my heart is pretending to gasp for breath. i glared up at him playfully as he continued to laugh at me.

" I love you to luka now get dressed so we can get going." he left still laughing slightly.

i threw my blanket off of me and got up and walked to my closset. i smiled and pulled out a black v-neck that had "fuck off" on the front of it. i grabbed my red and black checker chucks and put them on. i stood infront of the mirror and smiled. now to head to the bathroom and do my hair and make-up. i plugged my straightner in and aplied a dark line of eye liner on both and top lid while waiting for it to heat up.

i grabbed the straightner and started on my hair. it took about 30 minits for me to get ready. i threw on my invader zim hoodie and grabbed my bags as i headed out of my room and downstairs.

i could barlely contain my exitment as i ran down the stairs two at a time. i heard laughing coming from the frontroom so i headed in there to see all the MIW guys sitting there. i started to gut nervous. i have only hung out with the guys a few times but no longer than an hour at a time so i dont know how they will like me going on tour with them so i just tucked my head down and walked into the room.

my hair hid my face as i took the only spot let which was right next to ricky on the love seat. i started to blush at having to sit so close to ricky. i felt someone looking at me so i looked up only to see chris looking at me with a knowing smile as i fidgit with my fingers. i silently glared at him so he knows not to sat anything. he just rolled his eyes and looked back at the guys.

i tried to talk to ricky a few times but he just ignored me so i joined the rest of the guys. about and hour of talking christ stood up and streched.

"alright guys its time to head out." i stood up with a sigh and grabbed my stuffed penguin that i turned into a backpack and my small suit-case. i heard a chuckle behind me. i turned to see balz. he smilled at me and pointed to my penguin.

"thats cute dude." i blushed a little and ducked my head.

"thanks. i named him batman because i love the irony." that caused him to burst out laughing as we climbed onto the bus. i smilled a little and fallowed chris into the back where the bunks where. most of the guys had already claimed their bunks and had thrown their bag in them. i felt balz behind me and turned to see him throw his bag on the top bunk of the left side of the bus.

"your bunk is below his." i jumped at the sound of chris' voice behind me. i slapped my hand over my heart and turned glaring at him. he laughed at me and patted me on the shulder.

"dont do that to me chris! you nearley have me a heartattack." that caused him to laugh more and shake his head muttering a "whatever luka" as he left the bunks and headed to the front. i sighed and put my bags in my bunk and climbed in after them. i sat my suit case down at the end of the bunk and put batman by the small window. i sighed and layed back on the bed. i pulled my phone out and sent a quick text to chris.

L: Chris please dont tell any of the guys about my secret i dont want them to hate me. nor do i want them to be creeped out that there is a "fairy" touring with them.

I felt a tear slide down my face as i sent that.

C: Luka they wont think any differant about you. the guys are really cool about stuff like that and you are not a "fairy" you are a person. but fine ill keep your secret but your gonna have to tell ricky you like him sometime.

my eyes widened. how does he know i like ricky!!! i shook as i sent the next message.

L: i don't like Ricky o.o why would you think i like Ricky????? i most certainly do not o.o besidies even if i did it wouldnt matter but it still dont matter cuz i dont!!!!

i was freaking out by then. i stuck my phone in my pocket and rolled over. i opened the curtain to my bunk and was about to climb out when i saw ricky. he was standing facing me but his head was down ans he was texting. my mouth dropped open when i saw him standing there in nothing but his boxers. i guess i made a squeeking noise because his head popped up. i blushed and quickly looked down so he wouldnt see and climbed out of the bunk.

" you ok luka?" i froze. did he know what if he found out. OH MY UNICORNS!!!!. i just nodded quickly and ran out of the bunks and into the bathroom locking the door. that was close. too close. no one can find out about this. i felt more tears stream down my face and i slide down the door and sit against it. i pulled my phone out of my pocket and pulled the case up pulling out my blade.

i stared at it for a while before i pulled up the sleaves to my hoodie and made 6 new cuts along my arm. i washed my arm off and wrapped some gause around it and pulled my sleave down. i placed my blade back into my phone case and looked in the mirror and glared at myseld.

"why do you have to be this way? i fucking hate you." i turned my back to the mirror and walked out of the bathroom making my way to the front of the bus where the rest of the guys were. the only open spot was across from balz at the small table because chris, devin and ryan were playing black opps. i sighed and sat down. this is going to be a very long tour. i layed my head down on the table and just let everything fade to the back of my mind.

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hai my little penuins

im sorry for not updating sooner im a procrastinator (sp?) and i have ADD so it is very easy for me to get distracted. but i love you guys and let me know what you think about this chapter