you make me feel alive (Ricky "horror" Olson boyxboy)

prologue

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Luka's pov

I groaned, rolled over and shoved my head under my pillow. I smiled as i realize that even after this summer was over i would never have to return to the hell that was high school. i looked up at the wall and ran my fingers over the picture frame that had my deploma in it. Everytime i look at it i feel accomplished. i never thought i would make it this far but yet here i am. there were a couple times in the past when i lost all hope but then chris would talk talk to me and i would feel better. my smile faltered as i remembered all the hell i had to go through to get that deploma. all the beatings i would get from the kids at school, all the times i would be shoved into a locker, and the one that got to me the most was when i came out of the meterphorical closet. my eyes misted over as i remembered that night.

~~~~~flashback~~~~~~~

"dude luka come on!!!!" i sighed and rolled my eyes but took the red solo cup from my friend gage.

"whatever if it will get you to shut up." i downed the gross tasting brown liquid that was in the cup and was quickly handed another. i shrugged. i had already had one why not have another but two led to six. i wobbled a little and gage grabbed my arm and dragged me up the stairs to a room. there was like a bunch of people in a circle and they were playing truth or dare.

"Luka!!! play with us." i just smiled at the person. i couldnt even tell who it was because my vision was messed up. i sat next to this skinny emo looking guy and smiled at him. he blushed lightly and looked away. i giggled to myself and crossed my legs indian style.

"Ok bring it. i chose dare." i didnt know what they were gonna make me do but if i did i would have ran out of there as fast as i could. gage looked at me then to the boy with a smirk.

"Luka i dare you to kiss lane." he pointed to the boy beside me and i smirked. the boy who i now knew's name was lane was blushing bright red and looked up at me.

"My pleasure." i leaned forward and placed my lips on his. he was a little shocked at first but then kissed back. i ran my tounge along his bottom lip and he parted his lips. i deepend the kiss causing him to moan. i loved the sound of it. i ran my hand up his thigh and rubbed him through his pants causing him to moan again. i felt my own jeans start to get tighter and bit his bottom lip. right as i was about to push him back i felt myself being pulled away. i glared up at gage.

"what the fuck man?" i looked up at him with a glare but what i saw in his face instantly made my insides turn. discust. he was descusted by me. only then did i reallize what i had been doing. i looked over to see that lane had ran for the door and was now gone. i looked back at everyone else. they all looked at me like i was something that died and was stinking up the place. i felt a tear roll down my eye.

"Awe is the little fag crying."

i looked back up at gage only to see his fist connect with my face. i held my face to stunned to do anything. the rest of the people decided to leave the room and there was just gage and a coupleof guys fromt he football team.

"youre gonna wish you were never born." i blacked out after that and woke up a couple hours later laying in my front yard beaten with queer and fag written all over my body in perminent marker. i saw head lights pull into the drive way and i saw a tallish figure running toward me yelling my name. i sat up and rubbed my head. i felt a hand grab my shoulder and i shrunk back and i felt the tears fall again.

"Lucka its ok. its just me. its chris." he moved my hair from my face. "what the fuck happened to you?"

"im gay chris. thats what fucking happend to me." i stared crying harder and i felt him wrap his arms around me. i leaned into my older brother.

"Itll be ok Luka. i promise."

~~~~~end of flashback~~~~

i felt the tears sliding down my face but quickly wipped the away when i heard knocking at the door. i grabbed my long sleaved shirt and pulled it on and sat up.

"come in."

i brushed my long hair out of my eyes so i could see who was about to come walking into my room. the door opened to reveal my older brother. i smiled widely when i saw it was chris. he hadnt been able to make it to my graduation because he was on tour. he smiled and walked the rest of the way into my room and closed the door behind him. he sat on the end of my bed and looked at me.

"I am so proud of you Luka." i couldnt help but smile even wider at him."So i was thinking.......since you arnt in school anymore you're gonna be needing to get a job."

i groaned and fell back on my bed. why cant i get a break? all day yesterday my parents were bugging me to go out an look. now they have chris doing it. i sat back up and looked at him with a "you got to be kidding me look" and raised a perfectly plucked eyebrow.

he laughed lightly." how would you like to be the new merch boy and be our personal photogropher?"

i literally jumped out of my blankets and tackle hugged him.

"YAY!!!!!!!!! THANK YOU CHRISSY!!!"

he just chuckled, hugged me back and stood up, making me plop back onto the bed. he walked over to the door and looked back at me. "ill be back tomorrow to get you. pack your shit." with that he smilled and walked out the door.

i waited a few moments to let that sink in. i jumped out of bed and started to pack. i cant wait. i smilled slightly at the thought of getting to see the rest of MIW.

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