you make me feel alive (Ricky "horror" Olson boyxboy)

chapter 4: what ive done

Song: last night by skillet

Sorry it took so long to update. I've been busy I still love you all. <3

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Ricky's p.o.v

It's been two weeks since the incident with Luka. Chris still won't look or talk to me and the guys think I should apologize. I know I was wrong for reacting the way I did. I was scared about my feelings and what would happen if they came out. I'm still scared. I heard soft snores beside me and sighed. This needs to stop. I sat up in the bunk and ran my hands through my hair grunting as they get caught. I could hear the soft beat of music coming from Lukas bunk and the guys talking and goofing around in the front of the bus. I swear josh never gives up the peppercorn act. I shake my head and let a sad smile fall on my lips as I realize the song luka s listening to is the cover of rocky valentino's wait out the days. I could hear small sniffles along with the music.

What have I done? I frowned and looked at the purple haired girl beside me. I didn't even know her name I just met her after the show last night like the rest of the girls I have been sleeping with. She rolled over still asleep and wrapped her arm around my waist. I frowned and scooted away and out of the bunk. I threw on a pair of basketball shorts and a random shirt on the ground. I looked down at it only to realize I had grabbed Lukas signed BOTDF V-neck. I sighed breathing in his smell. He really did smell nice. I pulled the curtain back on my bunk and poked the purple haired girl in the face.

"Hey you need to get up. You need to leave. Like now."

I watched as she threw on her clothes looking rather sad. She hurried out of the bunk area and out the front door. I walked to the front of the bus and into the kitchen area grabbing a monster from the fridge. I sat beside balz and took a drink. I felt eyes staring at me.

"what?"

I look up to see it was Chris staring at me but Luka was beside him shirtless. I heard chris sigh and stand up walking over to me. I couldn't help but let my eyes rake over luka's chest.

"Luka needs his shirt. Which is on your body."

I look down and sigh. Great the first words in two weeks and they are telling me to stip and not in a very nice tone either. I stood up and walked past chris.

"Rick, give me the shirt."

I turned and glared at chris. "why should I give it to you? It isn't yours, it's his." I walked over to luka and pulled the shirt off and handed it to him.

"here Luka."

I walked back over to where I was sitting next to balz not even caring that I had no shirt on or that luka looked like I just punched him then gave him a hug. He looked so confused and it kills me to know that I'm the one causing him all the pain and confusion. I watched from the corner of my eye as he walked back to the bunks. Chris walked closer to me.

" I don't know what you're playing at Olson but leave him alone. Haven't you caused him enough pain?"

I sighed and lowered my head taking another drink of monster. Chris finally went back and sat down next to ghost and started talking. Balz poked me in the shoulder and smiled at me.

"you know you cant keep bringing strange girls back here right? It isn't healthy for you and it isn't healthy for us since how the bitches are never quiet." I nod and look up at him.

"yeah I know josh." I let my head fall back and smack against the wall.

"you can always talk to me ricky....look I know we all haven't been as close since what happened, but im still here for you and you can come to me about anything." I couldn't hold them back anymore so I just let the tears fall freely down my face.

"i..i cant take it any..more. I made a huge mistake and I know it. I like him and I was afraid. I didn't want to admit that I liked him because I was afraid of how people would react." I was full on balling my eyes out and there was no way I was going to be able to stop. I felt arms wrap around me and the room fell silent.

"what do you mean rick?'' I clung onto balz for dear life. As if any moment he could push me away and id lose them all forver.

"im a fuck up josh. I hurt him and he'll never like me now. I ruined every chance I had with him by saying all those horrible things to him." Balz pushed me back to arm's length and whipped my tears away. he smiled and stood up motioning for the others to do the same.

"come on guys lets go get some wings!" I could feel even more tears start to pour out of my eyes. He didn't care how I felt all he fucking cared about was some mother fucking chicken wings! I stood up and started to push past him so I could get to the liquor cabnet.

"rick calm down and sit down. Trust me ok?" he looked me in the eyes. "please ricky?" I sigh but sit down in the spot I had been. They guys all started out of the bus luka and chris were the last to besides balz. Right when luka went to get off the bus balz grabbed his arm.

"not you. Stay here with Ricky. Trust me with this Luka." I heard a slight whimper come from him but he nodded. My head shot up as I heard a deep growl and met the angry eyes of chris. God he frightens me ( *holds ricky close* shhh shhh baby its ok *sticks tongue out at chris* meany)

"there is no way in hell I am gonna leave Luka here with him." Chris jabbed his finger at me and to say that hurt would be an understatement. More tears fell as balz grabbed chris by his ear holes and pulled him to the door.

"well that's to damn bad ain't it because you have no choice." He turned and looked back at me " and rick....don't fuck this up." I nod and sit there as I heard a sigh and the seat dip beside me. Balz dragged chris the rest of the way out and closed the door behind him. I could hear chris's objections and balz yelling at him to shut up. It caused me to chuckle a little until I realized that Luka was sniffling beside me.

"Luka?" I look up and brush my hair out of my face " I am so so so sorry luka. Ill never be able to apologize enough. I fucked up bad." I reached over and brushed his bangs to the side. " you are amazing and I know what I did hurt you but is there any way you could forgive me?"

He just sat there and stared at me, Tears pouring down his face. Finally I couldn't take it anymore and grabbed him by the back of his head and crushed my lips to his.

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So I updated finally

What should happen next? Vote and ill make it happen the one with the most comments wins.

1. Luka slaps the shit out of ricky and runs away

2. Luka kisses ricky back and accepts his apology

3. Luka pushes ricky away and states that he has a boyfriend and walks away