Angeli&Rikers; Derek Luh

two; distress

"You have a collect call from Derek, press pound and one to accept."

Doing so, I waited for the warning that the call I was on was being recorded.

"Hello?"

I smiled a bit, hearing from my incarcerated baby daddy, key word: incarcerated.

"Hey Derek, what you calling me for?"

He knew that it was Angeli's nap time and she was definitely taking a nap. I needed to get some stuff done and her being out the way was definitely needed. I knew this conversation was gonna go downhill.

"Damn, I'm just tryna talk to my baby moms?"

No.

"For what, we don't really have nothing to talk about Derek, our lives have changed and they went in two totally different ways. Fuck we gon talk about? The weather?"

I heard the irritation in his voice but it was the harsh reality of our lives.

"As long as Angeli is our baby, we're gonna always have something to talk about."

I'm sure the both of us shared a deep eye roll.

"What are you calling me for Derek? I have things to do and get done before Angeli wakes up and I don't have the time to be fucking around."

I got up from my couch and walked into the kitchen, bringing along the baby monitor.

"I'm just gon forget about this attitude you got and ima continue—

"Why the fuck did I have a baby by this nigga? God why you ain't stop me?"

I mentally cursed myself.

"— anyway, I wanted to call you to ask how you felt about Li meeting Delany?"

Hearing about another Luh just worsened my mood by far.

"I haven't thought about Derek, honestly like stop asking me about it. On some real shit, fuck ya family. I don't give a fuck about em. I got shit to do bye."

With that I hung up and decided to go take a nap. I knew I didn't have long before Angeli was gonna wake up.

-

"Mama, he pisses me off so much, like I wanna snap his neck."

I cried aloud while on the phone with my mother. Instead of napping I decided it'd be better if I spent an hour shopping online for cute clothes for Li and I.

"Baby, relax. I mean let's be real I don't like the boy at all especially since he left you hanging high and dry, but after all you chose to open your legs to him and this was the effect of your actions."

What my mom was saying was the last thing I wanted to hear. Even though, she is right.

"I know mama but damn, I would've never expected it to turn out this way, I have a whole baby daddy, not a husband and father but a whole baby daddy, and on top of that he's incarcerated."

My mom knew where I was coming from and felt my pain and she made that clear. I knew I was probably annoying the shit outta her but I appreciated the fact that she was still listening.

"Baby, I think you might need to cancel your visit with him this week and really take a breather. All this happened so fast and you both still haven't addressed you alls feelings about that night he got arrested, the things that happened after, the migration, and especially the night you gave birth to his daughter and he was no where around."

With all that, tears were streaming down my eyes heavily and steadily.

"If you do decide to go and visit him, don't take Angeli, you're gonna need to take that time to hash out all your feelings about everything."