He's Not Normal (Completed)

VIII

Before the chapter starts,
There is going to be mention of suicide, rape, and self harm. Please, do not read if you become triggered easily. This chapter isn't a big deal to the story, just a filler in about a character.  I will put a warning so you can still read the chapter. "Stay alive guys. It's worth it I promise"

     I woke up, that feeling still haunting me. It was like a weight was thrown onto my shoulders, no one could see it and it couldn't be removed. I didn't wake up to It humming into my ear, and I was alone.

Alone.

   Never did I think I'd ever say I was that word. I always had someone talking to me, always someone there. Sure, they weren't always there but I never felt alone. Now, I'm all alone, and I'm scared.

   "Have a good day love!" Amy yelled happily. I ignored her, walking out the door and getting on the bus. Anna and Phil got on before me, we were the first three people. I looked where they usually sat, and it was empty. I frowned, sitting in the seat. Jamie got on the bus and looked at me, when she didn't see the duo she frowned too, and came to sit with me.

   "They're not here?" She asked, setting her bag in the next across from us with mine.

   "No," I replied, shrugging. Jamie sighed, tugging her sleeves over her hands and crossing her arms. I could hear her music coming from her ear buds, she had good music taste. When the ride was over we both awkwardly walked to first period, Algebra. We were the first there, so she played on her phone, and I laid my head on my desk. The room was quiet.

   Dead silent.

   I wasn't used to this. I picked my head up and looked around. It was too quiet. I started tapping my fingers on the desk. Still too quiet. I felt myself start to panic. My shoulders felt heavy again. I felt light headed, my eyes were squeezed shut. I'm gonna scream.

   "Dan you're making yourself bleed!" Jamie said quickly, shaking me.

   I looked down at my hands. I had my arms crossed, and was digging my nails into my wrists. I pulled my hand away from my wrist and seen blood both on my nails and arm. It hurt, but I honestly didn't care right now. I smiled at the blood and touched it, feeling the stinging sensation and closing my eyes. I was alive. I was alive and I felt pain. Damn did it feel good.

   "Good morning class! Today were going to discuss..."

ΞΞΞ

   "Guess it's still just us?" Jamie looked up at me as I sat at the Cafeteria table. "Sammy isn't here either."

   "Okay," I sat down. She had her food pushed to the side, her arms on the table. Her hands were covered by her sleeves, and I could tell the jumper didn't want to be pulled that far.

   "Are you okay?" I asked.

   "Huh?" She blinked. "I-Im fine! Thank you."

   "Don't lie to me," I said, scowling. "I hear voices for fucks sake I know when someone lies to me."

⇨Trigger Warning ⇦

   "Why do you want to know.." She said softly.

   "Because I know what it's like to be ignored," I answered. "Now tell me."

   She slowly let go of her jumper sleeves, they shot back just barely showing her wrists. I seen it. Red marks. I sat next to her and took her arm below the table, and pushed back her sleeve to her elbows. She had cut from her wrist to almost her upper arm. There was no empty space. I looked at the other arm, the word USELESS was cut into it. I let her arm go, she quickly covered them back up and looked at me.

   "My mom she..." Jamie cleared her throat. "She likes.. She likes coming into my room and.. And..." She teared up. Something inside me starting hurting, I grabbed her and hugged the poor girl tightly. "..I can't t-tell anyone.. Or.. Or she'll... She'll kill me... M-My brother k-k-killed himself be-because of her a-and I want to, too."

   "No." I shook my head. "I don't care what the fuck is happening. You're not going to die. I am here, yeah? Come over whenever your mum gets home from work and such, my step mum won't care. Don't ever say you want to die.."

   "I-I feel so alone." She whispered against my shoulder, clinging to my hoodie. Those words broke me. She seemed too happy to feel this way.

   "Well you've got me now," I smiled at her. "And you're stuck with me, okay?"

   She sniffled, looking at me. "Y-You mean it?" I nodded. "You're not as scary as everyone says, Daniel. Thank you."

   I nodded.

   I honestly didn't understand where this side of me came from, I didn't know I even had a soft side. It was weird, I kinda liked it.