I miss you. I thought it would stop but it hasn't. I thought that all you were to me was a casual hookup and a friend. Just someone to cuddle with and watch Netflix with. The one I could do all the fun parts of dating with without the drama and heartbreak. I thought I wanted emotionless and I thought I could do the no feelings. But I cant. I want you. I want all of you. I want the good and the bad. I want you to make me cry and hurt me. I know its not sunshine and happiness all the time. I get that we aren't living in a fairy tail and that you're not my Prince Charming but you're enough. Im all in. I like you. I like everything about you but I don't know how to tell you. Im lost in my fears of rejection and instead of conquering them I'm writing this. Im stuck in a swarm of 'what if's' and worst-case-senerios. I think too much. I cant get loose. I cant be carefree.I just want to fall blindly in love with you. I don't want this to last after a day or a week. I don't want it to be easy. I want it to go down in a raging blaze. I don't want to be friends after. I want it to be the best and the worst days of my teenage life. Pure hatred, passion, lust, and frustration. I don't know why. I don't think its going to end well. I think I'm making a mistake. I think I'm going to get hurt and end up drowning in a mix of regret and tears. But I think too much.
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شِعرjust all my poetry and thoughts from my page in one along with some extras
