We aren't just passing ships, are we?

I'm loved and i'm lost

**The day after**

Emma POV- Nothing really happened after the kiss... we walked back to the ship in silence and with a good distance between us. I think it had been quite the emotional night for both of us. We both headed onto the ship. Killian insisted that he slept on the sofa, but it didn't give him the choice. He could have HIS bed. After I 'fell asleep' Killian must have stayed  awake, i would hear him pacing round his small kitchenette. As the foot-steps grew closer i started to panic. My breathing increased but i kept my eyes shut and my body static. I heard Killian knee click as he lunged down beside me.

"Goodnight, love"  He whispered, he lightly kissed my head and went to his bed. I lightly opened my eyes and saw him hop into his bed. i wanted him to stay but i know that, that wasn't a choice. I layed there unsettled all night only dozing of into a few light sleeps. I couldn't stop thinking about him. That kiss changed everything. But now... now i am vulnerable. Vulnerable to love. Killian may have knocked that wall down but it still scared me. What if he is like Neal? I knew that Killian would never do that but there was still one more wall, was Killian gonna be the one who knocks it down?

 I shot up in fear. I grabbed my phone and i threw on my jacket. I needed some air and to clear my head. It was 5am so I doubt anyone would be out. I wondered along where me and Killian where last night. I walked up the peer where we kissed last night. I was looking out at the sunrise when i heard footsteps pacing up behind me. I thought it was Killian but i was wrong. It was Neal...

"What the hell are you doing here? Did you follow me?"

"Oh no don't worry Emma. I'm only here to give you what you deserve.."

I pulled a concerned, confused look

"Now, as i see it. Killian's replaced me. You found a new man to ruin your life. But come on Emma, you know that i'm better"

He pushed closer to me trying to grab and kiss me. I pushed him back shakily but with force "No!" I cried. He came at me again, my instinct was to hit him so i threw my arm and hit him in the side of the head. He placed his hand on the side of his head to check if he was bleeding. He was... I saw the anger in his eyes, he lit up like a flame. He was much stronger than me. He violently  pushed me to the ground. I hit my head on the hard wood of the peer. It knocked me off into a blur. He pushed me off, over the edge into the water. I tried to move but my body was paralysed. I could still hear everything as I was sinking. I heard shouting. Killian? 

My world was slowly going black as i rested on the ocean bed. I gazed up into the glistening light, it was beautiful. Crystals dancing above me, it this what dying was like? I could feel the sting of the salt burning my eyes. As i closed them one last time I heard the muffled sound of water. Someone grabbed the small of my back and brought me to the surface. I didn't have the strength to open my eyes. We both shot up out of the water like torpedoes. I coughed out all of the water in my lungs and took a large gasp of air. I still couldn't open my eyes, i couldn't do anything. They carried me up the ladder and onto the cold wood. My mind kept blanking in and out... "Emma! Emma! Come on you have to wake up!" They said with a cry in there voice. They where shaking my body profusely. As they held me on there lap i could feel my energy coming back. I lightly fluttered my eyes before opening them wide. I gazed up up into the sky, with my body still paralysed. I stared for a few moment before my eyes where drawn to...to Killian?! He looked so heart broken. Seeing him brought and my power back. I wrapped my hands around his torso and it was closest to me. I was home...