hope [ art book 2 ]

☆ 34 - *ok so about suggestive themes [PLEASE READ BEGINNING] ☆

Okay so this might be news for some of you, some not, but i often dont feel very good. Depression has been hard and ive just... been under so much stress and anxiety. Ive never shared my vent art with anyone before, and i just want to warn you of the 'star *'.

if the chapter title has a * in it it will contain suggestive themes.

I dont want to trigger anyone. And now im not talking about the "#trIgGgErrRRRRrEd1!!!1111!1' joke. No im talking about the ones who actually get triggered. So!! If you know that you can get triggered by reading that kinda stuff stay away from those chapters (or you just dont like vent n shit).

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So now that ive set out a little warning im gonna talk a little about my depression? :')

Ok so its been getting a lot worse in all ways possible. I've never been an shy person with anxiety problems but im starting to feel so anxious all the time. Like the anxious gut feeling? That one. I've started having a lot more nightmares too and its getting harder to sleep for longer periods. Its just becoming more shit and shit for each day that passes.

Anyways so today I almost had an anxiety/panic attack. I dunno. I was just round having a good time and then bAM The Anxious Gut Feeling™ back at it again. I was skyping with Slim at the moment (or well chatting really intensely in skype) and when i said that i felt like i felt like i was gonna have an attack she helped me breathe (by typing in out in a steady pace??? weirdy enough it helped lol). I had to leave though since i needed to sploosh some water in my face, slap myself, tell myself that im here and im okay.

Then we talked about depression and feelings for a while /she is an depressed shitface full of sass and i love her/. After a while we started talking about fanfics again, she sent me a fic about a magical sex island, and it was all good. Kinda. I still had this gut feeling and the best way of letting it out for me? Draw. It dosnt need to look good, i just wanted to let my feelings out. So this is the outcome.

bARABABABAAAAAH

It helped me so much the anxiousness is goneee ~

Also me and Slims conversation is still going. We started talking about kinks because she was getting ready to write smut (witch she is writing atm), i showed her a lot of pretty birds and yeah. We just chillin at 1am ;^ she just asked 'what noise... does it make when someones mouth gets pulled off a dick?' well friend

*lewd pop*

Thanks for reading this shit I guess! Stay safe loveys<33333333

Sorry for all typos or the weird wording i cant bother rn lol

- nelitted -