Janoskians One-Shots

Meant to Be

I've known from an early age that I wasn't wanted. My parents had only planned on having Luke. They even picked out the perfect name for him before they even knew the gender. I was just an added piece onto their otherwise perfect child. Their perfect little family was already complete before I was discovered.

Most people don't realike this, but my dad absolutely hated me. For some reason, he was able to see the failure I would grow up to be before I was even born. I didn't recognize it at the time, but he would look at me with disgust.

As Luke and I grew older, people began to see just how different we truly were. I was the sensitive twin that wore his heart on his sleeve and didn't really care about winning things like everyone else seemed to. Luke, on the other hand, won everything. People often joked about him being from a different planet because of how great he was at everything.

Luke was always the golden boy, but I was the black sheep. It was hard at first, but eventually I learned to accept the fact that I would only ever have Luke. I knew that as much as my family hated me, Luke could never betray me like they had. For a long time he was the thing keeping me sane. When he was around, life didn't always seem so hopeless.

I started to lose hope, however, the same day Luke decided to start trying to make everything a competition between us.

I didn't know what to think at first. My twin brother, who had always made life for me at least somewhat bearable, suddenly decided that he needed to show the world how much better at everything he was than me.

Beau wasn't much better. He always threw in my face that Luke was perfect and could do no wrong. Then, he would tell me how weird I was or call me a psycho.

Honestly, it was no surprise to me when I finally broke. I lost myself because I literally had no one. Luke had blown up at me about who knows what and I didn't know how to handle it. I stopped functioning. I stopped eating. I stopped sleeping. I stopped doing anything.

I already lived in Luke's shadow, so I decided the best course of action was to become his shadow.

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"Jai, can I talk to you?" Luke asked me one day, biting his lip. I nodded my head and opened my bedroom door wider to allow him room to enter. He walked inside and made himself comfortable on my bed, picking at the loose strings on my blanket. "Are you okay?"

"Of course Luke, I'm fine." I answered, honestly. I was fine. There may have been a time where I had let those hurt feelings cause me to become depressed, but not anymore. I had truly accepted my role in life. It had taken a long time, but I had finally accepted who I was.

"Jai, I know there's something wrong with you. You never smile or laugh anymore. It's like you're just a shell of who you used to be."

"I promise there's nothing wrong Luke. I'm just being who I was always meant to be."