Can you Love me?

c h a p t e r 37

The black smog swirl around the tips of my finger and I eyed with a certain amount of fascination. I pictured my mother in my head who was never my real mother. My friends which I never had and my love life was doomed. Self-pity is never an attractive trait but there are some bad days where you can't help but lament a to what went so wrong that you prefer to die over living.

I was locked in a room inside the palace and Silas was serious about the whole party thing. Planning was going on with full force and I had no idea how to control my raging emotion.

First Silas wanted me to become dark and all and now he doesn't want me to kill. I get it in a sense. Since there is not King without the people, he just doesn't want to me kill everyone. Everyone would be a large population since this was just one state and one academy. There are several academies for Knights trained all over the world.

How wide does my fear spread?

Do they know me in Africa? Europe? Asia?

I bet I was made to create a doomsday since I can literally wipe off the entire population from the earth and that doesn't sound that bad.

Actually, it does Frozen.

Jayden penetrated my head and I yelled out in frustration.

Stay away, fucking ass hole.

I kind of deserve that.

There was silence in my head but I know he was there.

Kasper is trying to contact his grandmother for help.

Fuck off, I don't need anyone's help.

Frozen, your temper is a little scary now with all the swearing.

Just for a moment, I felt like laughing at what he said but the rush of unpleasant memories stopped me.

So how was it working for my father and making a fool out of me.

Soul wrenching painful.

He can't say these things to me now, not after he betrayed me, lied to me and hurt me that bad.

So go die now Jayden.  My voice was brutal and blunt.

Not till you are alive. He was trying to get strangled to death.

Then get lost from my head.

Have you take a shower Frozen,  he asked in a conversing manner.

How dare you ask that? So yeah, that response was totally lame but I was embarrassed.

How could I take a bath when I was stuck in the room for the D- Day. And no matter of washing will clean off this dirty dark shade covering me.

I heard you have red eyes now? Jayden asked.

Did I not tell you to get lost Jayden?

This sour loser , how dare he thinks about getting you?  Jayden was thinking about it and I heard it.

I bit back a giggle. I was not supposed to feel happy even a bit but it happened for a minute.

Cut that, no one is the winner here. I snapped at him.

Are you not hungry? He asked breaking my final restrain.

Wallace, leave please. I am dying or rather becoming evil. Either way I don't want you around me. So leave me alone.  I said trying to keep in place.

You are angry. His tone made me re-think I realised I said Wallace instead of Jayden.

Shocker, isn't it? I am Silas' daughter, I have a right to be evil.