My possesive ex-boyfriend.

Chapter twenty one - thats cute

Kirsty's pov,

Jack loves me! its a good thing, ive been waiting for ages, for him to open up to me about how he feels, and he finally has, its like a dream come true, but theres still a big problem. dean.

Jack doesnt know what he's getting himself into , and he doesnt want to know.

Its really unfair, he's a great guy, and im attracted to him physically and mentally, he's perfect, and i mean it this time (i think.)

I paused for a few minutes, i really didnt know what to say, i really didnt want to say the wrong thing.

Jack stared at me awaiting a reply, well this was awkward.

it was time to take a stand to break the awkwardness between us, and maybe even create a brand new atmosphere between us: love.

"Mm well jack, you see the thing is, im honoured that your in love with me, because your an amazing guy in each and everyway, and it makes you perfect. but dont take any of the stuff i say personal jack, because i want you to know, that i have grown attached to you. I'd love to be in a relationship with you, and be your : girl, your babe. or whatever you like. i'd love to be your wife, i'd love to have you kids. i'd love to be the one who makes you happy. id love to grow old with you. i'd love to spend the rest of my life with you. But the question is do you feel the same? do you know what your getting yourself into? how tricky this relationship could be? how stuff could turn out? that we might not be able to be open about our relationship straight away. and you deserve better than this better than me. And theres so much, you dont know about me." i explained.

"That was a long answer, and an unexpected one, and i wanna know you. ill tell you my life story if you tell me yours." he sighed.

"Fine but your going first." i told him.

"It was about 2 years ago. my older sister, she had this boyfriend, and my dad really disapproved of him and my dad was a mental man, he had mental health problems and could switch just like that. so anyway my sister was gonna run away with her boyfriend, and my mum knew all about it, and gave her cash, brought her a new flat etc. The night they were meant to leave, my dad told me that he loved me and he was sorry for abusing me for all those years and wanted to set things right. So i told him about my mums and sister plan. o.. oh and he killed her, my mum. and its all my fault, my sister, eventually recovered but she moved away and didnt want anything to do with me. i didnt blame her i was a stupid piece of shit, i still am, my mum died because of me, its all my fault." he cried.

"Jack, i had a bad upbringing too, i know how it feels to be alone, but you can always talk to me about anything." a tear slid down my face.

"Now you can tell me about your life, pretty kirsty." he told me, whilst wiping his tears away.

"My mum used to beat me. all the time for no particular reason, but one day, she was angry and she beat the shit out of me, it was awful, my bones were shattered, i was in a wheelchair for four whole months. and she slapped me again recently. then there's m.. my dad. When i was fourteen, my mum used to work away from home for weeks just leaving me and my dad. one night he went to the pub and came back steaming. and when i was in the shower he raped me for two hours straight, it was horrible, painful, and probably the worst experience of my life. I'd never forget the evil, dirty grin he had on his face. My parents got divorced but recently got back together again. So when i was fiftheen i met this guy, called dean, he was amazing. so i thought. he helped me with my depressions, and stopped me selfharming. one day we split up, and he's been obsessed with me ever since. i dated a guy called jake, he cheated on me with one of my 'best friends' and lied about a load of shit. then i dated his brother nick, we were really in love with each other, and i was pregnant with his child, and at the party right before i had the miscarriage dean texted me saying how's your babies, how's you and nick broke up with me the next day.and im sad to say i still selfharm today." I explained.