Opposites Attract | Dean Ambrose

Chapter 36: The Funeral

The Funeral Day

Joe's POV:

Today was the day of Maddison's funeral. The entire roster was getting ready to attend. Maddison's brother, Max found out a couple days ago and said he would be there. He told me that he told their parents about it and they didn't seem to care. Apparently, they laughed about it when they found out. They're sick parents.

Colby, Jon and I were also getting ready. Jon hadn't said a word all day. He wouldn't show any emotions. I was worried about him, Colby was too. 

"Jon, we need to go now." Colby said. "It's almost time."

Jon nodded, not even looking at us. 

"This is ridiculous." I muttered under my breath. "Jon, you need to fix up. You're acting like nothing has happened. I hate to say it to you but your girlfriend is dead!! She's no longer alive and you're acting like it's no big deal??!! You're a father Jon but you refuse to accept her. Are  you gonna be like this in ten, maybe twenty years time?? I hope not because right now, you're being a heartless father and boyfriend."

Jon didn't looked phased. I understood that he was upset and I shouldn't have been too harsh but Jon need to stop keeping his feelings inside. It was unhealthy. What makes it even worse is that he still hasn't mourned. Colby and I are scared about him. What if he stays like this forever??

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The Church

Jon's POV:

The church was really crowded. The entire roster was present along with Vince McMahon and his wife, with Stephanie and Shane and Hunter. We all sat inside the church. Joe and Colby sat next to me. The coffin with Maddison's body was at the front and the casket was open so you could see her. It did break my heart to see her. My emotions were slowly starting to leak through the cracks in the wall I was keeping them behind. 

I saw Maddison's brother Max who was also here, sitting on the opposite side of the church. Everyone was here and they were all upset. Everyone kept saying they were sorry to me but I ignored them all. The priest said what he had to say and Max went up first to say his speech. 

"All I have to say is....my little sister deserved better. She deserved a better life, a better childhood. The only thing that made her happy was wrestling and the only person I saw her so happy with was with Jon. She may have been quiet and shy but underneath that was a fun and intelligent woman who I am so proud to call my little sister. I just wish I could have done more for her. What our parents did to her was horrible and I just wanted her to be happy and live her life. I love you Maddison and I'll never forget you." 

He wiped the tears falling down his face and went to sit back down. Suddenly, I was called up to speak. I was pushed to the front as I didn't want to talk. But I didn't really have a choice. 

"I....I don't know what to say. I......I just wish I could have prevented this. I wish I was a better boyfriend. Maddison deserved someone better and that someone isn't me." I could feel more emotions spilling out and as much as I didn't want them to, I couldn't control it. "I....I still love Maddison and....and......I......I'm sorry, I can't do this."

I wiped the tears running down my face as I ran down the aisle and out of the church. I was feeling so many mixed emotions and I didn't know how to deal with them. 

"Jon, are you okay??" I heard a familiar voice. It was Colby. 

"I....I don't know Colby. I don't know if I'm okay. I don't even know who I am anymore. I'm just.....lost."

"I know you're hurt Jon but it'll get better. It's good that you're letting out how you feel." 

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After the speeches, it was time for Maddison to be buried forever. We were all stood around the coffin and the people began digging the hole. I felt everyone's eyes on me but I ignored it. They closed the lid of the coffin, making tears spill from my eyes. 

When the coffin was being lifted up to be put in the hole, that's when I completely lost it. I hit my breaking point and there was no way I could be stopped. Loud sobs escaped my mouth as they were putting the coffin on the hole. Everyone looked at me with sympathy. I was breaking down. Then I remembered something. I felt my pocket and pulled it out. 

"Wait!! One second please." I called out, still crying and stopping the men from putting the coffin in.

"Jon, what's wrong?? They need to do this. You can't stop them." Joe said as he was wiping his tears. 

"I just.....one second." I said as I walked toward the coffin.

"Sir, you-"

"Please, I just need to do something." I pleaded.

The man looked at me and sighed. "Okay, I know you're hurting. Go ahead."

He moved out of the way, leaving me right next to the coffin and everyone else watching. I opened the lid and saw Maddison's body. One of my tears dropped down off my face and fell onto Maddison's cheek. I opened what I had in my hand. It was a small black box and when I pulled out what was inside, everyone gasped. It was an engagement ring. 

When I found out Maddison was pregnant, I knew that I wanted to spend the rest of my life with her. I went to the jewelry shop and got a custom made ring. It had a huge diamond centre piece and little diamonds all around the band. I didn't tell anyone about it, not even Colby and Jon. I was planning to propose after Maddison gave birth but now I can't.

I looked at the ring and then at Maddison. I kissed the ring before putting it on her finger. I looked at Maddison one last time.

"I love you so much Maddison. Don't ever forget that." I whispered as I closed the lid and went back to Joe and Colby.

"We are so sorry Jon. We had no idea you were planning on proposing." Colby said.

 I didn't reply. I just looked at the coffin as it was being put into the hole and covered in dirt. Again, loud sobs escaped my lips. I completely broke down and had to lean on Colby to make sure I didn't fall down. My other half was gone. The one who stole my heart and soul was gone. Now, I'm just a living ghost. My future wife is gone. What's the point in trying to be happy??