You Have It All

Chapter 14

I love you?! Did I just hear that right? I love you?! The big I-L-Y?! Woah. What is even going on here?! Im seventeen! I'm not even sure if I know what love even is! And now Im standing here, in front of my enemy (or ex-enemy...if that exists?) kissing him and saying I love you? God I hope this is a nightmare. A cruel, harmless nightmare that in 10 seconds I will wake up from.

Unfortunately it wasn't. I was reminded of that when I was pulled back into another heated kiss with Derek after his confession. I pulled back a little after the kiss, trying to get a grip of everything. He looked into my eyes, his brown orbs so sincere, pleading almost and asked

"is everything okay?"

I was stuck, frozen in that moment, in Derek's arms, looking at his gorgeous face wondering what I am going to do.

"Yeah...I'm fine"

I whispered. He still didn't let go of me but continued

"you don't have to say it back"

he said as he broke our stare and looked at the ground. His cheeks were turning a cute shade of pink, he was obviously embarrassed. I tilted his chin back up to meet my face, I wasn't sure what I was going to say but was there any harm in saying it back?

On one hand, I risk the entire squad and everything I have ever worked for a stupid relationship. But on the other, I have this gorgeous boy standing in front of me, blushing and telling me he loves me. The worst part is I'm so confused at how I feel towards him. He's my worst enemy, can he possibly be my boyfriend at the same time? I never thought this would happen. But I guess that's what they say about love, you never see it coming.

Honestly I never pictured myself with Derek, not now, not ever. Yes I've fantasized about being with guys before but those guys were Justin Timberlake or even Harry Styles (he will never find out about this got it?!) not Derek. Of course only just meeting Harry, talking to him only through text and only going over a couple of times, I should have never expected to have a chance with him. Maybe in time? Who am I kidding I'll never be good enough for him. He's so real, unlike other celebrities and he is such a great guy. So here I am, contemplating who I really like and/or love. Derek or Harry?

Harry would never like me back though. It's impossible. He deserves better. He deserves someone who can match his perfect qualities. Not me. I mean I have known Derek for a long time. Maybe it was meant to be between us? For once, I'm not cringing at the thought of being with Derek. Maybe he's the one who has my heart?

Through all these thoughts, only about 2 seconds has passed so to make the tension less awkward I kissed Derek again. When he pulled back I said the words I never thought I would have said.

"I love you"

I smiled. Wow, this was really happening. So much for a cruel harmless nightmare. We hugged and he kissed me on the cheek.

"You make me so happy Daniella"

he whispered in my ear. I started blushing. We pulled apart and went to grab our stuff. It was getting late and we both needed to get home.

"Let me walk you out?"

Derek asked while holding a hand out.

"Sure"

I smiled while taking ahold of his hand. We walked out of the dark gym and outside into the crisp night air. We walked all the way to my car holding hands. Wow cliché. When we got to my car I unlocked it and he opened the door for me.

"Wow, what a true gentlemen"

I teased smiling. He grinned

"anything for me lady"

he said with a mock Royal accent as he bowed. I kissed his cheek and got into my car. He closed the door behind me and mouthed "bye"

I mouthed "bye" back as he began walking around my car to his car further away. He walked around the front of my car bopping his head like a chicken. What a dork, I laughed. Hmm charming, a gentlemen, funny, ex-enemy? This is all seeming too good to be true. And we all know that when something is too good to be true...