Sad Girl

Thank You 💒

                                                                                                                         01:47
                                                                                                                            07 /04/2017

Thank you , thank you for everything , for hurting me , making me cry , sad , depressed , broken , angry and want to die , for make me feel that I have value for you , that I'm nothing for you , you are the same with me and without me , nothing changes without me , if I live or I don't for you ; is the same thing .
I hope that all that is just dream , and i I'll wake up happy because it was just a dream and we are in our best day in 2015 can that happens ??
I'm waiting to come back , come to ask me questions about my life or I don't know, the important thing is you come to me , but you don't 😞 I don't why ?
Sometimes I say everything was a dream , like 2015 I say it was just dream when he told me the truth about him , but I thought that 2015 was the best in our relationship , I remember 2015 like it happens yesterday , isn't normal thing , oh my God !!
I miss him , our fight , our conversation and everything about us , our relationship, our love , our new , our hearts and our problems for every girl that you talked with her or every boy that I talked with him , also our lives , when you work all the day and at night you told me all the time what you did , it was the best time or when you tell me when you drive ouuuh and when you come to me without telling me it was really a surprise for me , but the perfect when you call me and we talk and someone of your family come you tell them that you talk with your wife 💍 .
I remember in August 2015 , you promised me that you won't let me , if I live with you I will never be sad with you , you'll let me everytime happy , you told me also ; if everybody let me , just you you won't , you will stay forever with me . You told me , you won't be happy till the day you will see me with a white dress 👰🏻 .
I remember also , in July 2016 ( we was just friends) , when you tell me that you wanted to call me and I accepted like a stupid girl , first we had fun like every best friend , than you told me to tell you " I love you " , I didn't accept , you said 1 , 2 ... If you say 3 you will hit your hand in the wall , so I had to tell you that , you did that plus 3 times , but I forgave you because it was your birthday , it was 02 a.m , then we turned our happiness to sadness , we remembered our past , I mean our best days together , when we were Man and his Woman , when we were Husband and his Wife , we were crazy together , we were happy , we were the best couple in our friends , but will we ? When we remembered those things , you told me come back but I wasn't able to do it , causes ********** , he started to cry , I listened for the first time Man cry , it was so , I don't know what I can say , but it made me cry also , bur I didn't show him , he told me those sentences that I won't forget all my life " please come back , please, if I repeat my mistakes another time let me let me , please come back , close your eyes and say okay baby please I love you , you love me too , why we aren't together ?? Pleaaaaaaaaaaaaase come back , I can kill my self for you , you know I am crazy I can do ir , please don't let me , I won't let you , if repeat my mistakes let me but now please come back " it was so hard to hear those sentences from the most person who I love him so much and I don't want to see him sad , but his sadness for me , it was so hard , my God , when I remember this day , I start crying without any reason 😳 .