Only for Carter

Chapter 5 - Just A Little Awkward.

How do I even describe the feelings, I felt last night towards Maddox. It all happened so quick, but ended even faster. How could I have let it happen, for the second time. I'm not going to deny, that I enjoyed it, because I did. It made me feel alive, like I was wanted. The way his hands ran across my body, felt beyond amazing. How could I feel so violated one minute but so warm and safe the next?

Unwrapping my self out of my Blanket, I sit up and swing my legs out of bed. Wiping the sleep out of my eyes, I make my way towards my bathroom. I'm never gonna get sick of saying that. I walk in, not even bothering to close the door. I turn the sinks faucet on and splash some water on my face. Grabbing a hand towel, I pat my face dry. I got to turn around but I'm stopped when I hear my bedroom door open and close quickly. Slowly walking out, I look around to see no one around. I must be hearing things, right? Or could this place be haunted?
Smiling to myself while I take off my oversized blackbear hoodie, I make my way towards my closet, while chucking my hoodie on my bed. Turning on the light switch, I jump at the sight of Maddox standing there.
"I thought you in a towel looked hot, but now I'm thinking you in your bra and panties looks even better." He says seductively, his brown eyes gawking at my breast. I stand there, once again unable to move. What is he doing to me?
"Thanks, I guess." I say my throat all choked up, making my voice sound deeper.
"Always my pleasure sweet pea." Before I know it, I'm pulled closer towards his hard rock chest, which I realise now, it's bare. He spins me around, picking me up in the process and pushes me against the shelfs. Kissing me while doing so.

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We kissed for about ten minutes before he finally left me to my self. I can't believe I was just standing there with only my bra and panties on, and him with only shorts on. I can't get the feeling of his groin out of my head. It was hard, and oh man did it feel good against my vajayjay. I can't get over it. I feel like a new me. A good me.

After sitting on the floor in the walk in, I decide it's best to get ready and go find the rest of the family. Looking up I see the pair of overalls. Standing up, I find my grey matching Calvin Klein underwear, I change out of my pink underwear and slip on my Calvin. Taking the overalls off the coat hanger, I pull them up over my body. Looking down I notice my cuts are visible. God do I miss the days I didn't have to cover my body, but not as much as i miss the days I could go out and not give two shits of people's opinions.

I find my white sheer top, and put over my Calvin bra. The top itself is a turtle neck, and lucky for me it has long cuffs on the sleeves to hide my cuts. Looking at myself in the mirror, I walk out into my room and find my phone. Taking it off the charger, I find 5 missed calls from Annabelle. Annabelle is my best friend from Melbourne, I've known her practically my whole life. Our mothers used to be best friends too, and I was so hoping that I could have lived with them instead of moving here. But unfortunately I'm stuck here.

I'll call Annabelle back, after I get breakfast into me. They better still allow me having breakfast, even though it is nearly lunch time. Like I can't help it I woke up late because a special someone kept me up all night and kept me from getting changed this morning. Like who does he think he is? Even though I haven't felt this good for so long, I can't even remember the last time I felt like I didn't have to hide. I was my true self with Maddox. I still am.

Walking out of my room, phone in hand. I take the time to text Carter and find out where he is. I get a reply instantly telling me he is in the kitchen with everyone. I lock my phone and make my way towards the kitchen.

Hearing their voices and laughs as I walk in makes me feel welcome, until they all go quiet at the sight of me. Wow even my life is a buzzkill. I should have known. Karen is the first to break the silence as she brushes the creases out of her yellow dress.
"My god don't you look beautiful, I'm glad you are dressed. We are going out for lunch and no doubt you are hungry as you didn't eat last night or breakfast." She smiles at me and than looks over to my dad, who is standing there with a grey sweater on and black jeans. And what are on his feat, loafers?? Oh my god, that's embarrassing.
"Okay." I reply, having no idea what else to say.
"Well since we are all dressed, we should head out then. Everyone meet in the foyer in 5 minutes." Everyone nods in agreement and goes there separate ways. Except for Maddox, Carter and myself.
"Hey Evie, do you remember Nicholas from the plane?" Carter stares at me, waiting for a response.
"Yeah, what about him?" Just as I say those words the doorbell rings.
"Yeah well I invited him." He replies as he leaves the kitchen. Maddox looks over to me for an explanation, but all I can do is turn around and leave him wondering.

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15 minutes later, we are all ready to go. Maddox insisted that he took his own car, instead of being squished up in the back seat with the rest of us. I on the other hand volunteered to go with Him, I don't think I could actually go another car ride with my father. Dad disagreed like I thought he would but I really couldn't care less. I don't even know where we are going, all I know it's bound to be somewhere expensive.

The car ride is filled with Jeremiah playing in the background , until Maddox turns it down at the lights. Looking at me, the next words that leave his mouth, makes me feel smaller under his stare than I already felt.
"You know I can see those cuts on your wrist right?" I feel my face fall and the tears well up in my eyes. Can it get anymore awkward between us? Is there even an us?