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fourteen

eunmi's pov
here we are, at hoseok's house. because he decided that he was tired. but of course i didn't believe him. he didn't look tired, he just looked like he wanted to get out of that place. so he used 'tired' as an excuse.

i asked him what were we going to do at his house. he said that he should do something simple. so here we are, cuddling in front of his tv. while it plays spongebob squarepants. i wasn't even going to complain. i love spongebob.

but i got bored. i wanted to do something else. but i could tell by his expression that he didn't want to do anything. plus he wasn't even watching the programme, he was spacing out.

i snapped my fingers at his eye level once, twice. nothing. i sighed. as i hesitantly pecked him on the lips. i was about to pull away when he cupped his hands on my cheeks, not letting me go. as he deepened the kiss. and i did the same.

after a while, we pulled away, panting heavily. i grinned sheepishly, and he did the same. "sorry, i was thinking of some things." he said and i nodded. "but don't you think that you're thinking too much now a days?" i asked, remembering how he was off since yesterday.

"yeah, maybe just a little." i sighed in relief at his honest answer. at least he's honest. "well, tell me about it." i smiled, drawing circles on his chest. but stopped when he held my hands into his's.

then he placed a kiss on my head, making my heart flutter. "i don't plan to lie. so.. it was about the girl we met from just now." he replied, and i felt my heart shattered. 'come on, it can't be something bad.' i thought to enlighten myself.

"and why is that?" i asked curiously. "you know that she's my ex-girlfriend, right?" he asked, making me roll my eyes. "you don't have to slap that fact in my face twice." i answered in a salty tone. he chuckled. "you don't have to be jealous. i love you, not her." then he placed a gentle kiss on my hand. he's such a gentlemen.

then i remembered what she said. and i frowned a little. "talking about your ex-girlfriend. whatever she said just now, what does she mean?" i looked up at hoseok, to see his face stoned.

i let out a deep sigh, looking down. as i took my hand away from him, and started fiddling around with my fingers. "you know i feel like you're more than just what you are." i mumbled. "what do you mean?" he asked.

then i looked at him. "i feel like you're hiding a lot of things from me, hoseok." i said, looking in his eyes. just as i said those words, his eyes became sad. and he looked down at me, smiling sadly. "there's some things i don't wanna tell you, eunmi-ah." i frowned at his words. "and why is that?"

he only shook his head lightly. "look, it's not that i don't trust you." he said. i folded my arms. "then what is it?" i sat up at a more comfortable position. he let out a sigh.

"i'll tell you some other times." he said, patting my head. i moved away from him. "it's either now or never, hoseok-ah." i said firmly. "eunmi, you don't understa-" "then make me understand!" i shouted, cutting him off. he looked at me, eyes widened.

"what is it that your ex-girlfriend know, and i didn't?" i asked, eyes teary. i didn't like the fact that she knew something about hoseok that i don't. hoseok placed his hands on my shoulders. "my love for her." he replied, not looking at me.

just then, i couldn't contain my tears anymore. "are you trying to say that you loved her more than you love me?" i asked, my voice breaking. he quickly shook his head. "you clearly love her more than me hoseok. it all shows." i mumbled, getting up.

he quickly grabbed onto my wrist. "no! you don't understand, eunmi!" he raised his voice. then i looked at him, to see his eyes teary too. i felt my heart break at the sight in front of me.

but i couldn't let this take over me. i shrugged his grip off my wrist, and walked over to the door. and quickly slipped onto my shoes. just when i grabbed onto the door handle, hoseok shouted something i wasn't expecting..

"i had a one night stand when i was still with her, okay?!" i stopped at my tracks, and turned back to see hoseok on the ground, crying his heart out. i bit onto my lower lip, feeling sorry.

i quietly made my way towards him and hugged him tightly. but he pushed me away lightly. but doing that only made me hug him tighter than before. "this is why i didn't want to tell you.." he mumbled in between sobs. "i was afraid that if i told you this, you wouldn't be able to take it. and leave me." he continued.

i shook my head. i cupped his cheeks with my hands, and looked at him in the eyes. i wiped his tears away. "hoseo-" "it was an accident, i swear. i was drunk." he cut me off.

hoseok's pov
"but it continue- fuck eunmi. i fucking cheated on her, okay?!" i raised my voice. as soon as those words left my lips, i immediately regretted it. then eunmi's grip on me, loosened. i closed my eyes. this is it. she's leaving me.

but what caught me off-guard, was when she hugged me tightly. "no hoseok.. i believe you're a changed person. you wouldn't do this to me, right?" she asked. but she asked in a timid voice. she's scared and i know it.

i mean how can you not be scared? when your current boyfriend is a fucking cheater? obviously you wanted to leave. but you don't want to leave because you're too scared to leave. you're afraid that it would be something worst than this.

"are you scared?" i asked. she shook her head. i scoffed. lies. "i know you're lying." i added on. then she broke the hug, looking at me in the eyes. "i swear jung hoseok, i'm not lying. i love you for fuck's sakes. i would never lie to you." my heart broke at her words.

she was all about being truthful. yet i am the black hole in this relationship. she clearly don't deserve me.

"what if i cheat on you?" i asked. "i know you won't hoseok. i believe that you've changed." her voice cracked as she replied. i only nodded, not saying anything. "so please prove it to me.. and your ex-girlfriend that you've changed." she mumbled.

"i will."

i can't promise anything, eunmi-ah.

she let out a smile, which enlightened the mood. her smile always does this effect. and at that moment, i swore to myself, i won't repeat my mistakes ever again.

i leaned towards her, eyes at her lips. then i took her lips into mine.

after a while, we broke the kiss, panting heavily, foreheads resting on each others. "stay?" i asked in a quiet voice. and she nodded. i smiled.

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