Curses And Kisses ;Book One (Jacksepticeye x Reader)

Afraid

.:13 Weeks Later..:.
     "(Y/N)! Time to get up!" Sean screamed. I leaned up and rubbed my sleepless eyes, "Didn't even get to sleep." Thanks to us.
         Yeah, thanks.
    I walked downstairs into the kitchen, where Sean was making some waffles. "Morning Beautiful." He kissed my cheek as I sat down at the table. I'm so tired, I didn't get to sleep, I was worried. "After breakfast, you should get dressed and put some shoes on." He  handed me a plate. "What? Why?" I asked, pushing the plate away from me, not having the stomach to eat. "PAX." He looked at me, "Did you forget?" I slowly nodded, "I'm sorry." "It's fine. I had you packed already. Your welcome." He sat next to me and started eating his waffles, my plate laid untouched. "I'm going to go and get dressed." I stood up, "You can have my waffles." "Can't eat again." He sighed. I nodded.
           The door bell rang. "I got it. "I called. I opened it, it was Mark. I laughed, "Are you really wearing your ASS ASS glasses?" "Yes. Are you really not going to tell Sean about your-" I cut him off, "Mark. Sh." He covered his mouth and walked in with his suitcases. "Hey Mark." Sean laughed, walking in the living room. "Hey Sean. What's up?" Mark gave him a bro hug. I cleared my throat, "I'm going to go get dressed." I looked at Mark and glared at him.
           I decided on one of Sean's Booper Dooper shirts, a (F/C) hoodie, black leggings, and my (F/C) Converses. I looked into the mirror, "Pretty cute for a-" Sean walked into the room and grabbed our suitcases, "Looking cute Princess. But, you really should just wear a t-shirt. It's going to be hot today." I shook my head, "I'm fine."
.:Sean's POV:.
   I loaded our (Mark,(Y/N), and me) suitcase into Mark's car since his was bigger. (Car you perverts.) "Hey Sean." Mark spoke. I shut the car trunk, "Mark. Can I asked you something?" He looked a little afraid, "Depends on the question." "Why is (Y/N) acting like this?" I asked. "I don't know what you mean." He leaned up against the car door. "She's been wearing saggy clothes, she won't let me see her in the shower, and won't let me see her at all. Only if she has clothes on." I added, "And, she's been throwing up. But not a lot." He shrugged, "I told her I wouldn't tell you." "Mark. Please tell me." I begged. He sighed, "Fine. But don't tell her I told you. You'll have to tell her you know later today, okay?" I nodded, and Mark leaned to my ear, "She's pregnant."
        My mouth fell open, I tried to contain my excitement, "Really? Why didn't she tell me?" "She's afraid, Sean. She didn't want anyone to know. I found out because she didn't get rid of the positive pregnancy test, in her bathroom." He revealed. I ran my fingers threw my hair, "I need to find out why she's scared."
                  -To the AirPort-
     .:Reader's POV:.
  I laid in the back as Sean and Mark sat  at the front, Mark with the wheel. We were 2 hours into our drive, 2 hours left, and we've stopped 5 times for bathroom,food, water, etc, I didn't get anything besides coffee.
     "Mark." I spoke up, "Can we stop at Starbucks for coffee?" Sean sighed and looked at me, "We've stopped like 37 times now." "Five times Sean, and yes. Yes we can (Y/N)." Mark pulled up into Starbucks. Sean looked for his wallet in my purse, "What do ya want?" "Just a coffee. Vanilla. Please." I sighed. He kissed my cheek, "I'll be right back." And left me and Mark alone. Mark cleared his throat, "You've got to tell him (Y/N)." I started to cry, "M-Mark. I-I can't." "I know. But you can't leave him. Him not knowing, is only going to break your relationship." He warned. I nodded, "I'll tell him. Later today. Promise."
       Sean handed me my coffee and sat next to me in the back seat. "Thanks." I said, taking a sip, removing my hoodie. "No problem. I'd do anything for my pregnant fiancé." He smiled. I choked, "What?" He laughed a took a drink of his refreshment. "Thanks for telling me (Y/N)." "N-no! Sean! I'm sorry. I've would of told you, I was just scared. And. Why tell you something that might end, soon." I frowned. "(Y/N)!" Mark growled. "Don't talk about that stuff." Sean looked at me, a little hurt, "Your not going to have a miscarriage." "You don't know that." I growled back. "I do. And how? Because we're going to treat you like a Queen, making sure neither of you get hurt." He promised. I started to cry again, I hugged Sean tightly, "I'm so sorry. I'm just so scared." "Why?" Mark spoke up. I let go of Sean and leaned by in my seat, holding Sean's hand, "My mother died. During labor. Giving birth to me." Sean looked at me, "Then who is the lady you lived with?" "Step mom. I told everyone she was my real mom so they wouldn't ask what happened." The water works, oh no, "For years. I blamed myself for her death." "(Y/N)." Sean hugged me, Mark was holding my hand, rubbing circles with his thumb.
"Then, my father remarried. But soon killed himself because because he couldn't stand to see his daughter." I sobbed into Sean's shirt. Sean rubbed my arm, I quickly pulled away. Both boys looked surprised. Until Mark noticed something, "Hey (Y/N)? What happened to your arm?" I hid my arms, "I don't know. Don't worry about-" Sean grabbed my arm, "(Y/N)...." He looked like he was on the verge of tears. "I'm sorry. I was so scared. And sad. I didn't know what to do." I sobbed. Sean kissed my cheek, "Shh. It's okay. It's fine. You were in a moment of stress and panic. Losing two family members, it's difficult." "But still. It was uncalled for. I lost my dad at a young age, then my ex girlfriend broke up with me, and then I lost Daniel. But I didn't go and cut myself." Mark sighed, "But. I understand. Come on. Let's get back on he road."
-At PAX West-
      I was pushed on stage, "Jack!" I giggled a little. Everyone laughed and cheered. "Hello everybody! My name is (Channel name) or (Y/N). And welcome to PAX West!" I jumped up and down, giving jazz hands. "(Y/N)! Hurry up!" A sweet Irish voice spoke. "Fine!" I giggled. I sat in one of the leather black chairs, "First. He's the man with a messed up plan, but that doesn't effect his YouTube career! Say hello to! Markiplier!" Mark ran onto stage and sat in one of the chair next to me, "Hello!" He sang. "Next!" I giggled, "He's the talk of Ireland, or at least in his house. He's SUPER loud, and when I say loud...I mean....I mean loud." "That's all we need to know!" An Irish woman screamed. I looked at the woman and laughed, "Hi Mrs. McLoughlin." She waved at me.
              Sean quickly ran on stage and smashed into me, we fell onto the floor, staring down at each other. I stuttered, "J-Jack?" He laughed, "Don't be nervous around me." The crowd went crazy! Jack kissed my lips, they went even crazier. I took his hand and he helped me up. "Anyways! Hello everyone! And welcome to PAX West!" Mark announced. They cheered, and clapped their hands. "Anyway!" Sean smiled, "I'm joined by my best friend, Mr. Iplier. And my lovely Fiancé, (Y/N)." "Congrats!" Someone screamed. "Don't congratulate us yet. We've got more news." Sean smiled at me. I looked at him confused, he pointed at my stomach, I shook my head no.
        "Um." Sean looked at Mark. "The news is..." Mark started. "We're going to Live Stream. Tomorrow! Yeah. At Mark's house." I finished. Sean smiled at me, "Yeah. We'll all be there. Playing games, doing dares, saying some truth. It will be a good time!" "We don't want a bad Time!" Someone, probably a woman, yelled. Sean whispered into his mic, "Megalovania intensifies."  The crowd laughed, some booed. The beginning was great, let's keep it that way.
           "First question." My Irish fiancé smiled, "What's your favorite ship?" I jumped up and down in my seat, "Septiplier!" Mark rolled his eyes, "Oh geez." "Guys." I giggled, "It's going to happen. I know it will!" Sean kissed me, "Not when I'm engaged to you." "We love you!" A corner laughed. Sean waved at them, "We love you to." "Hey, security. We had some major PDA over here." Mark smiled. "Haha, very funny Mark." Sean rolled his eyes and sat next to me. "Next question. Who would you hug on stage, and why?" I read. "I'd hug Mark, sorry (Y/N). It's just Mark is so muscular. And manly." Sean smiled to the audience. "Oh it's okay. I'm going to hug myself. Because I like myself." I gave myself a self hug. You look like a retard. A voice said. I stopped at looked down. "I would hug Sean. He's just so small. Like a puppy or something." Mark made gestures with his hands. I smiled, but the voice wouldn't shut up.
                   Your Worthless
                Nobody Loves You
             Everyone Hates You
    
           Until one hit me like a brick. Sean hates that you lied to him. I broke down crying, streams of tears quickly running down my face. Sean hugged me tightly and whispered, making sure he avoided the mic, "What's wrong? Is it the baby?" "What's wrong?" Mark asked, looking a little worried. The crowd began to whisper, shouting, asking if I was okay. "I'm sorry." I mumbled. One of the security came up and handed me a water, and asked if I wanted to stay on stage. I shook my head, "I'm okay." I had to make up an excuse for crying, "Pain attack, I guess." "I hope your okay." The crowd said. "Yeah. Me to." Mark and Sean both said in unison. "Sorry for messing up the panel." I wiped some of my tears away. "No, your fine." Mark looked at the crowd, "Aren't we?" They all cheered. Sean rubbed my back, "Your okay. You didn't do anything wrong."
     -The Next Day;Mark's House-
      We were all on Mark's couch, ready to start the Live Stream. Sean's mom was in the kitchen making some snacks. We didn't make her, she just wanted to help. "Mrs.McLoughlin?" I spoke up. "Please. Call me mom or something. Mrs. McLoughlin, it's just so, formal. Ya know?" She pulled the fresh cookies out of the oven. "Sorry mom." I smiled, "Can I tell you something?" She nodded, "Anything dear. We are family." "Okay." I sighed, "When you were pregnant. And in labor. The regular way. Did it hurt?" She knew about my pregnancy, and I was finally happy I was gaining a daughter and mother relationship with Sean's mom. She thought for a little bit, "Hm. Yes. Yes, it did." I began to panic. "But. They'll give you some medicine to ease the pain once you reach a level. You'll do fine honey. Stop worrying. You've got like 9 months left." She giggled.(This isn't true about finding the gender out so soon, but please. Just go with it.) "Hm. And can you go with me do the medical thing? I don't want to bring Sean. He'll be busy playing games and everything with Mark." I asked. She shoved a cookie into my mouth, "Oh, of course! Come on. Let's go."