I'm sitting on the floor of my bedroom, with pictures scattered around me. pictures of her. smiling, laughing, sleeping. mostly stolen shots.
I was looking at the picture they took of us from the beach..
she was so happy that day..
she was happy with me.
I took a long swig of the beer I have in my hand & took another picture from the floor..
we were in Santorini.
I have her on my back, while Ju Cheol took the picture, she was holding my ear as if she was scolding me.
Ju Cheol was not happy about that...
and I dont care...
I looked at another picture. Its one of my favorite.
It was a shot I took when she was not looking, she was reading on top of a table underneath a tree. she have a large book and lollipop.
she look so relaxed.
I took another long swig.
I'm done.
I'm drunk.
I stood up & took a bottle of scotch with me and I walk out of my apartment door. holding her picture & my car keys.
I'm going for a drive.
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Olive's new apartment is not far from her old one, I guess she chose that as its near where she works. the building is small.
only 2 storey and she's on the left side, 2nd floor.
I know w/c window she is. I'm looking at it right now.
that's her bedroom over there.
I sat on the pavement and drank the scotch I brought with me.
I looked at her window. It's 2:30am...
her lights are off.. she must be asleep..
I dont know why she would ignore me like that.
pretend I didnt existed. what did I do wrong?
God. I miss her.
I laughed out loud.
i'm going crazy. she not my girlfriend. she's not my wife!
we didnt break up or anything. but why am I in this situation.
I took my phone out & dialled her #.
I had to bribe her colleagues just to get her new number.
its ringing!
Hi, Im not available right now. pls leave a msg & I'll try to get back to you as soon as I can. Thanks."
"hey.. Its me.. just want..*sigh*... How have you been?
I saw you in the news.. about that human trafficking case...
that's huge... uhmm... are you eating on time. dont skip your meals.
take some rest...
"tooot..."
I hung up.
"....I miss you"
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I almost screamed with surprise when a head fell on top of my toes as I open the door.
"JK?....."
I looked closer at the sleeping form outside my door.
It is him!
"JK!... JK!.. what happened!?! " Wake up!"
I kneel down by his head, light slapping his cheeks.
"JK.. JK.. pls.. open your eyes.."
I placed his head on top of my thigh, as I fumble in my bag. looking
for my phone..
I was crying so hard I cant see what Im dialling...
"Hello 119??... "
a hand covered my hand & took my phone.
I looked down & saw him waking up..
"oh G! you're awake!" before I knew what I was doing, I hugged
JK as tight as I could.
He gave a low laughed.. he smell of Alcohol!
I pushed him off me.
"Are you drunk!?" Im pissed,
"why the h*ll did you have to drink that much & pass out
outside my apartment?!"
he slowly sat up & leaned back at the door..eyes still closed.
I pushed him
"answer me!"
He didnt respond.
I pushed him again harder this time.
"yah!"
he almost fell on the floor but I was able to grab his sleeves.
"JK?"
he's sleeping again.. I touched his forehead...
"you're burning up!." I took my phone & called the office.
"hi, sorry I wont be able to come to work today.. I'm not feeling very well.. yeah... uhuh... yes.. ok.. ok.. just send it to my email
I'll look into it. ... uhuh... uhuh...yes.. ok.. thanks..
while on the phone, I didnt realize I was holding on to JK on my chest and he have his arms wrapped around my waist..
I gather my things in one hand and looked at JK
"come on...."
We stood up with my weight supporting him, I held on to his waist & wrapped one of arms on my shoulder and dragged him upstair.
as soon as I lay him on my bed. I went to my bathroom to look for
medicines and then went to the kitchen to get a bowl of water.
I entered my room I can see him shivering. I went to my thermostat & increase on the heat.
I took the biggest shirt I can find in my closet and some blankets
"JK... can u stand up a bit?"
All I heared was a moan...
"Come on JK.. you need to change.. you're all sweaty..." I said as I try to pull him up on sitting position.
"G.. you're heavy.."
after successfully wrestling the shirt on him, I laid him down again & started to wipe him with the cloth...
*what are you doing to yourself?*
all morning I kept an eye on him, checking his temp & making him take his medicine. by noon I'm was exhausted I sat at the floor beside my bed..
*Thank G his fever went down...*
"Olive...."
I turned around and looked at him.
"eh? are you awake?"
"Olive...." he murmured...
*he's still asleep..*
"why?... " he started crying..
"JK... wake up.. its just a nightmare.."
"Olive...."
I wiped his tears. *Why are you doing this dumbdumb...*
I fell asleep seating on the floor with head on the bed.. my hands holding his.
