im going to miss the way you made me feel.
im going to miss our talks at the table.
im going to miss the way you made things sound clear and better than what i thought they were before
im going to miss your wrinkled skin and the way you smelled
im going to miss the feel of your beard on my skin
im going to miss the way you teased me
im going to miss the way you scared me and jumped out at me and made me fall
im going to miss running into the house yelling your name
im going to miss how you said if i wasnt good you would put your boot up my ass
im going to miss how you teased me about lighting my hand on fire
im going to miss how when i cried you listened and told me different ways to deal with a problem
papa im going to miss you a lot and i will never forget new years eve...you made it the best ever!! even through my tears as i write this i can see your face, i can hear you say "Samantha get off the computer and let your brother on" i can hear banging on the bathroom door making me scream. i can see you scaring me, i can see you at the table with your honey brown beer. i see you dropping ribs in the grass and brushing the grass off and putting it right back on the plate. i cant say it enough but you'll be missed more than ever. you made life fun,crazy and amazing. if you were here right now you would say "get your lazy ass off my computer or hmm sam? yes papa? didnt you say if i let you eat icecream you would clean up the mess and do the dishes?" thats just who my papa was. i love you papa you pain in my booty now i have your boot now whos butt should i put it up?
its been 4years since i lost my papa and i have my days that it feels like i just lost him. its got easier but i still miss him <3
