Only one picture left now. My heart hurts as I look at the last one in front of me, I get the urge to just rip it up, but I don't, I know I'll regret it, they are all I have left of you now.
October 4th 2012
We have been making changes to the nursery the past few days, we've put everything in, now it's just changing whatever needs to be changed or fixed up.
Simon went downstairs to make dinner so I turned the radio on and danced slightly to the music.
I moved swiftly around the room, dancing and singing to myself, feeling nothing but pure bliss in that moment.
Everything is so great right now and I couldn't be happier.
I was in my own little world until I heard Simon cough.
"Is dinner ready?" I ask him as I walk over and wrap my hands around his neck.
He smiles and places his hands on my waist. "Almost. I just wanted to check if you were ok."
"I'm great actually. Isn't it so perfect?"
"It is, just like our son."
"He's going to be here really soon Simon."
He almost looks sad before he speaks. "I know babe."
"Ok you go finish dinner! I'll just relax up here."
He leaves the room and I stand over at the window, it has blinds that shine a small bit of light through them, it looks quite beautiful actually.
I stare out into our garden and think of how soon there will be a swing set and slide out there and how in a few years Simon could be out there playing football with our little boy.
Suddenly I feel anxious for no reason, it just hits me like a wave, it's like that feeling that something bad is going to happen, I try to ignore it and place my hand on my bump.
Something about pregnancy makes me feel so beautiful, I mean at times it can be bloody awful but right now I feel beautiful, magical, as Simon says.
Again, Simon takes me out of my thoughts as he walks into the room.
"Stay like that for a second babe, it's perfect." He says as he rushes out of the room.
Confusion washes over me but I go with it and stay how I was.
Before I know it he's walking back in, of course he's brought his camera with him and I realise what he's doing.
I look down at my bump and place my hand on it gently.
The camera clicks and Simon smiles when I look over at him.
I walk over to him and wait as the picture develops.
When it does I almost cry, it's so perfect, it's so natural and I know I will treasure it forever.
"Thank you Adele."
Hi guys. I'm sorry again for quite a boring chapter... I know this story hasn't been that eventful but I hope you enjoy it anyway. Don't worry, you will find out what Simon did very soon. Thanks for reading, please leave a comment xx
