Gone. Gone. Gone!
You're gone and I don't know how to cope anymore! I'm angry now Simon, I'm so angry. I'll tell you why I'm angry, I'm angry because you could have talked to me but you didn't. You just gave up without even giving any reason.
August 28th 2012
Simon and I decided to go to the funfair today, we have nothing else to do and it's sunny out so I wanted to make the most of it.
I feel like my bump is getting bigger and bigger everyday.
My feet are swollen, I swear a lot and I'm moody. Whoever said every pregnant woman is beautiful was wrong, I'm not beautiful right now.
As if Simon read my mind he takes one hand off the steering wheel and squeezes my thigh. "You're beautiful baby."
I blush at his words and he smiles, there's been good days and bad days but he still won't tell me what's going on and I still haven't asked.
We get to the fun fair and I pretty much jump out of the car in excitement, Simon slowly follows behind me and I roll my eyes at him.
He takes my hand as we walk around, I'm in complete awe of everything and Simon seems amused at how amazed I am.
"Babe, I can't go on anything, I'm too pregnant."
"There's teacups over there. Go on them!"
"Ah yay! Come on! Come on! Come on!"
I drag Simon over to the teacups and give the lady my money, she helps me and smiles at me.
"I'm a big kid at heart." I tell her.
She smiles again and slowly starts the teacup.
She gently spins my one and I cackle. I look for Simon and when I spot him he has his Polaroid camera out.
He catches a picture of me in mid laugh, he gets those a lot because I laugh pretty much all the time.
After a few minutes the ride stops and I step out and walk over to Simon.
"That was amazing!!" I yell in excitement.
Simon chuckles and we walk around the funfair again, chatting to each other the whole time, it felt like a first date.
Simon ends up winning a cute little peanut shaped teddy bear on one of them games.
I hold it close to me as we walk back to the car, hand in hand.
Simon opens my door for me and I grin at the small but cute gesture.
As I'm putting on my seatbelt I look across at Simon and before I have the chance to speak, he does first.
"That felt like a first date, it was so good."
"You read my mind Simon."
He laughs and I rest my head against the window, before he starts driving he takes something out of his pocket.
"I took this while you were on the teacups, look how magical you look."
"Why thank you my love."
Hi guys! Actually feels so good to be writing this book again. I wasn't gone that long but I'm back again. I don't know how frequent updates will be but I will try my best. Hope you enjoyed xxx
