I'm sitting here, looking back on everything, trying to hold the tears back as I place my hand on my bump.
6 months pregnant, it's going so fast but you aren't here to see it.
Why did you leave us?
I smile a sad smile as I pick up the next Polaroid picture and remember the day it was taken.
5th July 2012
I stand at the mirror in the changing room, staring at my half naked body in my swimsuit.
I don't know what to make of myself as I stare, I don't know whether I should feel confident or if I should shrivel up in a ball and cry.
My thoughts are cut short when the changing room door opens and Simon is standing there in his swimming trunks.
He smiles at me and I smile back at him, hoping he doesn't bring up the fact that I'm almost in tears.
But of course, he does.
"Babe what's wrong??" He asks me and I shake my head.
"I feel awful Simon! I look bloody awful!" I say as he walks up behind me, his hands go to my waist and he gives me a gentle squeeze.
"Why are you squeezing me? I'm not a dang ketchup packet!" I say in annoyance and he chuckles.
"You're gorgeous Adele. You really, truly are." He says and I shake my head again.
"Simon, you have to say that." I say and he shakes his head at me.
"Look right here." He says, waving his hands from my head down to the lower half of my body. "All beautiful, all sexy, all wonderful. From your head right down to your uh- knees... you got some ugly ass toes babe." He says and I turn around and slap him upside the head.
"Dick." I say, walking away from him to go out the door to the pool.
"I'm joking! I'm joking!" He yells, following behind me.
Right before I get into the jacuzzi/pool I feel a hand playfully slap my ass, I turn around and see Simon running off to the other side, laughing with his Polaroid camera in hand.
I slide down into the pool and relax, I look over at Simon again and see him running and almost falling towards the pool.
I laugh loudly at him, my face scrunches up and my eyes are tightly closed as my infamous cackle pours out.
I suddenly hear a click of a camera and look at Simon straight away, sneaky fucker took a photo of me.
He lets it develop and when it does he shows me and I smile.
"My new favourite picture." He says softly into my ear.
I'll be updating this two chapters at a time so the next two will be coming in the next few days, enjoy xx
