In the Beginning God

4 The Fictional God

In the end the only nonfiction I could come up with was the writings of Jesus of Nazareth and this is the fact I cannot hide from.  We all know it is true. 

 If any fiction is to be judged it will have to be so judged by him, and he must come back to earth to do it with proof of his credentials.  Therefore if we can, we who have lived in this fictional world, the world as understood by human beings, we therefore will create our own god, neither God, nor Satan, and thereby reject God and the one that would be Him, but not the one I call the Weeper.  For the Weeper knows it was not created to oppose God, or to serve the Evil One but until the Weeper is revealed the agony of man will continue until it is revealed the Weeper is real, and by the way therefore fiction.

To say that I invented the Weeper is false.  I am not the only one who believes in a similar god.  I have never encountered a human being who does not foment the existence of such a creature by his vain attempts to either explain God, or to explain God away that is not plagued with inaccuracies due to our inability to speak, or as in most cases, to even know the truth.  Therefore I do not invent anything new, for as Solomon stated, “There is nothing new under the sun . . .” And though I cannot say it for a fact I believe all things have to be described, and explained in terms of things that are presently known to exist.  For example if even a bit of nothing that produced something we cannot know what it is exists, it must exist as everything else, and is in a sense nothing new.  And, that argument is true of everything else that exists whether known or discoverable.  It does not allow for that which exists that we know nothing of, and by the time of the end of humanity, never did know existed.  It has never existed in that we either never encountered it, or never understood an encounter with it to prove its existence though we may have encountered it on a regular basis.  For instance should heaven exist many encounter it probably without knowledge of it, or if the Weeper exists it does not exist in a way most of us believe, and yet it must exist or that we believe to exist does not including us.  Either we exist, or the Weeper exists as our common error, or better stated perhaps; the Weeper exists as that thing we all cannot help but do which we know is error, or even blatant falsehood and the part of us that would cause a perfect being, God perhaps, to call us all liars no matter how accurately we portrayed our flawed view of reality.  The essence of reality and the full extent of reality are not precisely communicable and not even precisely knowable by our limited knowledge of everything including the essence of that.

 To say the Weeper does not exist would leave no room for any forgiveness of those who agree that for the time being it does exist by the one who must either intend to be the Weeper, or intend to have been the Weeper when it fulfilled the fact of it having never existed, and the fact that it was never to really exist at any time in the future, when that time finally comes when the Weeper may actually be said to have never existed in real time.

No one can therefore say, “I am the Weeper,” any more than any one can say, “I am not the Weeper,” without being either the God or one who would be God in his own mind without being a boldfaced liar.   Yet we all know the Weeper, and we all say what the Weeper would say by default, and experience things as only the Weeper can, though we may not even think we are the Weeper lest we think of ourselves as Jesus the Christ of whom it is said, “He wept,” and the context indicates He was weeping for humanity which by the way is no more possible for a human to do accurately any more than anything else a human might do.

 However, I too weep as you do if we do at all for humankind which is very nearly the only mistake God ever made with, or without the help of the Evil One.

 The Weeper exists on a plain that reflects flaws of God to God.  But we all know that no such plain exists.  For God, being perfect by necessity has no flaws.  And a surface or situation capable of perfectly reflecting God, cannot exist, unless that surface is spiritual, and neither physical nor thought to exist.  Only God can say I am God and live.  And only one has said, “I am God,” and lived.  For only God is God, and no one else can say they are without lying which for God would be a major flaw if it were possible.  However the Father, in the way I understand it, can say I am God, and the Son can say I am God, and the Holy Spirit can teach us to say He is God, and that the Son is God.  For they are God, and they are one, and fortunately only God can be more than one person.

 If I say to you, I am a person of my being, I imply there are more persons to my being, and I lie.  Therefore if I say, “I am you,” to you, we know I am a liar.  If I say, “I am God,” I am also a liar for we both know I am not who I said I am.  Therefore there is you and me, and God.  But if we are to be seen in the image of God and not be God, we must be a mere reflection and not the real thing.  But if we are to be in the image of God we too must be invisible even as God is invisible, yet you see me.  Thus, you must either be lying, I must be lying, or what we are doing that is described as seeing must be flawed. 

 Everything I see, I see with my eyes, the eyes of my body, or the eyes of my spirit.  My physical eyes are flawed.  I do not see what you see with yours, unless you have the same eyes I have with all of the imperfections in my eyes being incidentally exactly like mine since no such thing like that can be done by others with eyes that have their own peculiarities.   That is to say that unless God gave us the exact same eyes, for reasons I cannot imagine, we all see things differently.  And even if we don’t, no two of us is in the same place and must see things from a different point of view.  It is impossible for us to see anything in every way possible and perfectly at the same time in the same place; we are not God.

Even should God have made us appear to be imperfect then we are yet perfect.  And now when I think I am imperfect and the Weeper is not, I have cast the Weeper as God for God deceives no one.  Therefore I have abandoned the truth in that case as it will be understood even by me at some future time.  But for the time being to think I appear to be imperfect is typically a part of my imperfections which I personify in the person of the Weeper who I have revealed as a god that will be revealed as never having been a god in the end, existing in the expanse between the truth and the lie, between good and evil, between God and the Weeper, for in that day evil of all kinds will remain as real as they have been but punished, quarantined, and rendered of no consequences as if everything they did worked on electricity and it was all suddenly turned off.