dear diary | kwon soonyoung

entry #4

dear diary,

she asked me for a pencil in class today.

i nearly screamed.

I spent so long crying internally that she assumed I didn't have one and asked someone else.

im such an idiot I hate myself omgg.

why didn't I just give her the goddamn pencil???

what if she hates me now??

i can just imagine her talking about me

'oh soonyoung? that idiot who didn't give me a pencil in math class? oh yeh I hate him'

she would say with her sweet voice.

chan came to dance club again but I obviously couldn't ask him to leave?

every time I look at him I think of her??

i really need to stop.

my dad stayed out late drinking and my mum got mad when he came home.

anyways I have math homework to do so I need to ask minghao for help because I was just staring at her the entire time.

she's so pretty.

kwon soonyoung