He Taught Me How To Love (Harry Styles Fan Fic )

Chapt.9

Harry's P.O.V

Katrina, katrina, katrina. That is all that has been on my mind these past few months. Why haven't you asked her out yet, you ask. Well, because one I am scared that she will say no, and two I am currently dating Kendall Jenner. We have been going out for three months, and things are good. I was currently in the recording studio with the lads, when I heard someone coming and sshouting my name

"HAROLD" Simon yelled in my face, I shook my head and stared up at him

"Sorry, I blanked out." I spoke shaking my head, and running my hand through my hair sighing.

"What's wrong boo bear?" Louis comes up to me, putting a hand on my shoulder.

"It's nothing, don't worry." I smiled, he did not push me on the matter, and the rest of the day in the recording studio was stress less and fun. We were finished recording when we heard a beautiful voice come for the booth. It was Katrina, singing our song Story of My Life. We haven't heard her really sing since we adopted her from the orphanage. She had a really lovely voice. It sounded like silk. Delicate, smooth, and flawless.

"You should sing more often love." Liam spoke sitting down next to her, she blushed and shook her head

"No, I only sing when I am alone. To scared in front of people." She whispered, and got up from the couch. She was so stubborn, but she had reasons to be sometimes.

"Alright, lets call it a day boys. You can have the week off, go visit family, friends, and girlfriends." Simona said giving us all a slap on the back before grabbing Kat, and walking her out.

"You like her don't you." Louis said from behind me, I spun around and stared at him with my eyes wide

"Shh I don't want her to hear you." I mumbled and he just smiled at me

"I haven't really seen you like someone before. Why don't you just tell her? " They all asked at the same time, I shook my head and turned around

"Just forget about it, alright. I am going out with Kendall tonight. Don't wait up." I spoke and said goodbye to all the lads, I was walking out of the studio when I bumped into someone, catching the person before the plummeted to the ground.I peered down and it was Kat, with her eyes closed tight holding her breath. I took my thumb and rubbed it over her eyebrows and cheek

"It is alright love its me, Hazza." I whispered, she opened her eyes and smiled up at me

"I'm so sorry, I should have been looking." She mumbled and stood up, I just laughed and shook my head

"Don't worry Kat, i-" I did not get to finish because I heard someone call my name, I turned around and saw Kendall coming up to me. I smiled at her and hugged her, and turned to see Katrina looking sad. Sad? Why would she be sad? She doesn't feel the same way about me, does she? Nah. don't be stupid Harry

" Kendall and I are going out to dinner, I will see you later. O.K."I spoke looking down at her, she nodded and looked upset

"O.K." She whispered and scurried away quickly. Kendall pulled my hand but I could not get over how sad she appeared.

Katrina's P.O.V

Why does it hurt so much to see Harry with Kendall? Maybe something is wrong with me, I should talk to someone. I have been doing much better since I stopped the pills and I haven't had any episode yet. Yet is the key word. The doctor said it is only a matter of time, and when it does happen it will be extremely painful and awful. I was bloody scared. We all were on our way to the flat and Sophia, Perrie, and Eleanor. were going to be there

"Katrina how are you doing." Perrie asked giving me a hug, all the girls gave me a big hug, I smiled I finally started loving and letting people in and love me for a change.

" I am doing better. How about you guys? " I said with a smile, Perrie was discussing her wedding plans and that she wants me to be one of her bridesmaids. I was lost in thought about my wedding. Will anybody love me for me? Or just that now I am Simon Cowells daughter and associated with One Direction? I started to get upset. What if no one loved me for me, what if they couldn't accept my past, my scars, my memories, everything. I would never have kids, be a mom, a wife.

"Kat what's wrong love." Louis spoke softly, my eyes were wide everyone was staring at me. I started to hyperventilate.

"No one is going to love me." I whispered, their eyebrows scrunched in and looked perplexed

"What do you mean sweetie." Simon spoke from beside me, I jumped and scooted all the way over. He put his hands up in surrender meaning no harm

"No one will be able to love me . I have scars, I have flashblacks, I have baggage. Guys hate baggage. I can't love easily or let anyone in. I can barely stay in a room with all of you with out thinking who is going to hit me." I yelled they all had sad eyes and were about to speak when I continued

"I will never have a boyfriend a husband. How can I ! I mean look at me I am a mess, my family haunts me everyday, I am ugly, short, and fat. I am a awful person. I should have killed myself that day, I am worthless just like everybody has told me my whole life. I would be an awful wife, mother, ANYTHING I WOULD BE AWFUL AT ANYTHING. I -I I can't I should have listened to my parents. " I boomed the girls were crying and the boys looked on the verge. The door opened and closed Harry appeared through the door, when he noticed us, he frowned and looked at me

"Whats wrong Katrina." Harry spoke coming closer I backed away holding my hands up I ran into the kitchen and got a razor blade holding it to my wrist. Where if I cut it I would bleed out in minutes if I went deep enough. The pain would go away, the emptiness everything would disappear.

"Kat put it down sweetheart." I shook my head no

"No, I should not be here. I am a waste of space. I am all the things my parents said I was. If I cut right here everything will be over and I don't have to feel pain anymore. I can be free. Free. like a bird." I whispered with tears streaming down my face, I finally hit my breaking point and I heard sirens in the background. I took the blade and was about to cut when the blade was kicked to the ground and arms enclosed around my waist. I smelt the familiar smell of Harry and thrashed in his arms

"NO, why didn't you let me die. I wanted to die. I WANT to DIE." I screamed and he just held me tighter, I noticed paramedics circling around me .

"Shh love, its alright I am here." Harry whispered, I shook with fear, hate, and love

"You should have let me die, let me please. let me go, let me go. " I whispered the girls were sobbing into their loving and caring boyfriends. I felt a stinging sensation in my thigh, the room was spinning and going dark. The last thing I heard was Harry's beautiful green orbs..............

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