Jami
July 2002
The phone rings in my ear incessantly. Ash will never give up. I answer but I never say a word. My heart is falling to pieces. The voice that makes my heart do somersaults is what I crave the most. A sob breaks from my lips. Just before I hit the end button I hear the words that break me all over again.
"What did I do?
"My parents are worried."
"Don't do this. Stop running."
"I Love You"
"I'll wait for you"
"Come back to me"
These are Ash's words that send a shock right through me. He must know and understand how much I love him. I want to scream it into the phone and up towards the heavens. I want to But I stop myself because I can't ruin his life any more than I already have. Ash is everything I want and need in my life. He listens to me and takes care of me more than anyone ever has in my life. God sent me an angel up from above. He is perfect in my eyes. But I don't respond because I'm not what he needs. Not now! Not ever!
I'm selfish because I know our future could be so amazing together if I wasn't so hard headed. This one thing that divides us. Ash was to be mine forever and always. Who am I kidding? No one has those anymore.
Falling across my bed I'm losing this battle of emotions. Maybe it's my hormones or my heart breaking or both. No matter how much I want to tell him everything I don't. I end the call. I end his pleading and sorrow. I put my phone down and let my feelings of emptiness engulf me. I fall deeper and deeper into the abyss until I drown. I'll never come up for air.
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