Spencer Hastings one shots

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Warning!!
So I really liked spencer and the drugs things but im gonna make it a little different and not in a good way so this is your warning if you dont like swearing or violence or cutting and things like that,than dont read this!
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Spencer pov
"Are you a speed freak" hanna yelled.
I can't answer I don't know what to say cause its true.
"Get out" I say.
"Spencer we wanna help you" emily says.
"GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY HOUSE" I yell what makes everyone scared.
They walk trough the door and I start to cry.
I grab the bottle of pills from my bag and take one out of it.
"For better days: I say to myself and take it.
I walk upstairs to my bathroom were the brown box is.
I open it and pick my razor out of it.
I pull up my sleeves and look at the old cuts.
Some are turned into scars others are still fresh.
I cut and one makes two,two makes four.
I stop at fifteen cuts.
I clean the blood and put the razor in the brown box
I walk downstairs take another pil and watch some television.

Emily pov
"Hey guys I send this sos because of spencer."i begin
"Most of you know what is wrong with her some not"
"Wait is something wrong with spence?" toby asks concerned
"Yeah we think that she's on drugs" aria says.
"Again!" Hanna says.
"We should go to her and try to give us the pills" hanna says.
"Han do you really think" caleb starts but toby interupt him.
"Lets go" he yells and we all drive to spencers.

Spencer pov
Im in the living room with the tv on.
Im not paying attention im more playing with the knife im holding
Im cutting my arms with it or twisting it
it is some sort of a toy for me.
And the same song keeps playing in my head.
(Song at the top)
My legs are dangling off the edge,
The bottom of the bottle is my only friend,
I think I'll slit my wrists again and I'm gone, gone, gone, gone.
My legs are dangling off the edge,
A stomach full of pills didn't work again,
I'll put a bullet in my head and I'm gone, gone, gone, gone
Maybe the world would be better of without me.
Just one cut a little deeper than I normally cut and its over.
Just a few more pills than I would normally take and im done
"Should i do it" I wonder out loud.
I take the knife and cut not like normal but a little deeper but than I hear the door open.
"Spence were here to talk" aria begins till she sees me.
Im still holding the knife whats now bloody.
"Hi guys"i say with a smile.
"What the fuck is this spence drugs thats one thing but cutting this is not you" toby yells.
"Than you clearly don't know me" I say.
I take the knife to the counter and watch as the blood is washing of.
I also wash the blood from my arm.
There's a knock on the door.
I open it to see that it is andrew
"Hey spence Ive got pills for you" he says smiling but his smile drops when he sees the others.
"Ive gotta go" he says and runs of.
"FUCKING CAMBELL GIVE ME MY FUCKING PILLS YOU SACK OF SHIT"I yell.
I smack the door behind me and look back at the others.
"Never seen a depressed person before" I say "now you have"
"We wanna help you spencer" ezra says.
"We're here for you" emily says
"Should I tell you something, look!, for example you go outside you see a street maybe some trees but all I see are the 100th ways to kill myself:
A tear escapes my eyes.
"You wake up and hear the birds or cars.
I wake up and hear voices in my head saying that I should kill myself that the world would be better of without me.
And do you know what I say now yelling its fucking true!
If you guys didn't show up just yet I would have done it I went deeper with the knife I wanted to go even deeper"
Everyone has tears in there eyes but I know they don't care nobody ever cares.
"I love you" toby says I smile at him.
"Now thats a lie" i say "and I hate lies"
"Spence its not a lie I really love you"
"If you really love me then you go out of my house and let me kill myself"
:Im not going spence" he says "and neither are they!"
"Im going upstairs to take a shower"
"We're coming with you" hanna says!
"I'm not gonna shower with all you guys watching me"
"We'll wait outside while toby is with you"
"No" I say shaking my head "i'm showering alone"
"With toby with you or not spence" hanna says.
I run upstairs while everyone is following I run into the bathroom and locking it.
I hear a knock.
"Spence please open the door" toby asks
"Spencer open the door!"
"Open this fucking door" he yells.
I open the door with tears in my eyes.
Toby hugs me and lets me cry in this shirt.
"Were gonna get you the help you need" toby says.
Spencer just cries cause she know she won't get better and these feelings will bother her till death.
But she doesn't care at this moment.
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I know that its kinda crappy 😂😂😂
So this is my first one shot of this book wow😂 I wanted to make this even worse that spencer actually killed herself but I couldn't do it.
Maybe there are some spelling mistakes in here but that's because im not english but dutch 😛💪 its a one shot thats why its not that long pls comment what you think💖
Ill try and update once a week and if you have any questions for me I would love to answer them x~anna96