Spencer Hastings one shots

short ending to "goodbye to all and may we meet again"

I wake up, why am i waking up and am i really waking up?
i remember it all clearly i tried to kill myself.
I want to open my eyes but they feel so heavy.
It feels like i can't move like i'm stuck
I try again this time my eyes open
I'm in a room it's dark.
I see myself standing alone in the dark room,two boxes appear.
One is red one is green
i wanna walk to the green one but i can't.
i see myself walking towards the red one
Images of my family,friends and toby are shown on the wall behind the red box. They're all crying,toby looks broken
toby who starts drinking toby who gives up on life.
i don't want that for him.
If i choose the red box does that mean that i'll die? And green that i'll live...
I wanna choose the red box i want all pain to be gone but knowing that toby the love of my life will break! That hurts way more.
*beep beep beep* When i open my eyes i'am greeded by my family and friends.
Toby hols a simpathetic smile
"I choose green" they all look at me with  questioning eyes. I'm not going to tell them what it means but i just had to say it out loud once.
so i repeat but this times smiling "i choose green"

I wrote this on a plane while watching the perfectionists and thought it was this amazing and great idea but it's not so enjoy this boring crap pls people request something... xoxo _multibitch_

Ps: im writing this a day later but I'M IN AMERICA BITCHESSSSSSS