In Your Eyes | #KNMelancholiaWC

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Hindi ako gaanong nakatulog buong magdamag. Kating kati na kong buksan yung phone ko kagabi but I tried my very best to stop myself. Gusto ko muna magpababa ng inis. Hindi ko alam siguro malapit na din yung time of the month ko kaya mainit ang ulo ko.

Pagkagising ko kinaumagahan ay agad kong kinapa ang phone ko sa bed side table at binuksan ito. I saw a text from Ridge. Dali dali ko itong binuksan.

From: Ridge

Congrats.

Yun lang ang laman ng text. What the fuck? Halos mapamura ako sa nabasa ko. Matapos ang buong gabi na sinabi niyang magtetext siya from time to time, eto ibubungad niya sakin? Binalik ko ang phone ko sa bedside table. Im extremely pissed right now.

Bumangon ako para maligo para makapagbreakfast na. I'm hungry. I forgot to eat my dinner last night.

Pagbaba ko sa dining area ay narinig kong naguusap si Mama at Papa.

"You should still try." Giit ni Papa

"Eduard, I already talk to the doctor before." Sagot naman ni Mama. Doctor?? May sakit ba si Mama?

"Kahit na, Zonia." 

"Let's talk later. Your daughter might hear you." Saway ni Mama at tumayo para pumunta sa kitchen. Lumapit ako kay Papa at bumeso.

"Hi, Pa. Good morning." Halatang nagulat ito sa biglaang pagpasok ko.

"Kanina ka pa, Zoe?" Tanong nito.

"Nope.. Why?" I tried my best to sound casual.

"Just asking." At bumalik siya sa pagbabasa ng newspaper. I'm so curious kung anong pinaguusapan nila ni Mama. Is mama sick? Is that why they're arguing? Pero bakit naman sila mag-aaway pa kung may sakit si Mama?

I tried my best not to ask question while we're eating breakfast but I keep on observing my mother. I sighed.

"Zoe, how's school?" mama asked with a sweet smile. People around us say that I got my Mama's sweet smile. The kind of smile that capture's attention because it looks so sweet and innocent.

"It's fine, ma."

"Your finals are coming."

"Yes po."

"Where do you want to go for a vacation? Any summer plans?"

"Uhm.. I don't know. Kayo po, papa? Is it okay for you to leave for a while?"

"I already filed a two weeks leave. Just tell us where you want to go." Papa said.

"Okay! I'll think of some places." Then I smiled at them.

If Mama is sick, diba hindi siya pwedeng umalis? Siguro whole body check up lang ang itnutukoy nila. Knowing na matatanda na sila. They should take extra care for themselves.

Umakyat ako sa kwarto pagkatapos. I checked my phone but wala pa ring text. I turned my phone off and went back to sleep. Sabi kasi nila, when nothing goes right, go to sleep.

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Nagising ako sa katok sa pintuan ko.

"Ma'am.." Narinig ko ang boses ng maid namin.

"Yes, ate?" Sigaw ko pabalik.

"Naku salamat naman at gising na kayo. Alas tres na po ng hapon. Gutom na h ba kayo?"

"Uh. I'll just go down later." 

"Sige po, ma'am. Magsabi lang po kayo kung magpapaakyat kayo ng pagkain.."