In Your Eyes | #KNMelancholiaWC

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Gusto kong sabunutan ang sarili ko nang marealize ko kung anong ginawa ko.

I am still holding his hand and I don't know where are we going.

"Zoe.." I heard him called my name. I kept on walking until we reach the shore. He pulled me and made me face him. I raised an eyebrow.

"Why are you smiling?" I asked when I saw him trying to hide his smile. He quickly shook his head.

"Wala." I rolled my eyes. I was about to walk away from him when he held me on my wrist. "Teka lang.."

"Ano ba? Babalik na ako sa hotel."

"You pulled me here then sasabihin mo babalik ka nalang sa hotel?" Tinagilid ko ang ulo ko at tinaasan syang muli ng kilay.

"Then what do you want?"

"Are you jealous?" He directly asked.

"W-What? Ofcourse not!" He pouted and looked at me as if he can see through my soul. Oh Lord! Ang gwapo.

"Okay lang aminin na nagseselos ka. I like that you're jealous but I also don't want you upset. Ang hirap pala." Agad ko siyang sinimangutan.

"Hindi nga sabi ako nagseselos."

"You didn't change a bit. You're still the Zoe I fell inlove with years ago." Then he smiled at me. Yung ngiting gusto ko nang bumigay sa kaniya.

I looked away and sat on the sand. Gusto kong pakalmahin yung sarili ko.

"You're still a flirt." I blurted out before I could even stop myself.

"What?" Natatawa nitong tanong at umupo sa tabi.

"Yes, you're a flirt Ridge. Kahit noong tayo pa."

"Hey, I only flirt with you back then."

"Yeah, you're good at that." I smiled at him and looked back to the sea. I can't even see it but hearing the waves makes me feel at peace. I am at peace whenever I am at the sea. Kaya nga noong gusto kong tumakas kay Ridge ay sa dagat ako pumunta.

"I remember years ago. When you left me. Sa tabing dagat rin kita nahanap." I looked at him. Ngumiti ito, ngunit hindi kagaya ng ngiti na binigay niya sakin kanina. Isang malungkot na ngiti. All I want to see is for him to smile ngunit ito lang yata ang ngiting ayokong Makita sa kaniya. "You really love the sea no?"

"It makes me feel at peace." He nodded at what I said.

"Why do you want to hide from me years ago?" He asked. Hindi ko akalaing uungkatin pa niya itong usaping ito.

"I have my reasons, Ridge. Isa pa, dahil kay Maggie." Ang hirap banggitin ng pangalan niya. Parang kapag binabanggit ko yung pangalan ni Maggie, kasabay nito ay nilalayo rin sa akin si Ridge. Parang isang reminder na hindi na siya sa akin. And will never be.

"I'm sorry." I smiled at him. A bitter-sweet smile.

"Ayos na iyon. Ang mahalaga, okay na tayo sa kanya kanya nating buhay ngayon hindi ba?" He looked at me for a long time before answering.

"Ayos na ako ngayon." Agad akong umiwas ng tingin at huminga ng malalim.

After that talk ay bumalik na kami sa hotel. I stared at the ceiling for a long time before I fell asleep kaya kinabukasan ay para akong zombie sa eyebags ko. Damn it, heavy duty na concealer ang kailangan ko nito.