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I'm so sorry Tony

I was nervous I didn't want to see Tony the way I last saw him or even worse. "here you are hun call me if you want to come home early ok Jamie." my mom said while rubbing my arm.

"ok" I mumbled softly taking another deep breath letting it out shakily.

"alright sweetheart see you in a few days." my mother said while kissing me on the cheek.

"bye mom love you all call tonight to talk." I said stepping out of the car with my bag.

I looked back at my mom then shut the door and gave a small wave turning to the spinning glass door. I saw a lady at the front desk typing on her computer there were doctors running around and some patients walking around with the saline bags on a metal pole.

" can I help you miss." the lady at the desk asked me.

"um yes um what room is Tony Joans in?" I asked some what quiet not trusting my voice that much.

she smiled at me then typed some stuff into her computer then she smiled back up at me.

"yes Anthony Joans is in room number 2114b."

"thanks." I smiled and started toward the elevator. I followed the signs that had the room numbers on them and where they were. I walked down the long white hall ways listening to the beeping sound of the machines hooked up to patients. 

there it was the big brown door with the big silver numbers on it. " 2114b." I didn't want to open it. I was scared. I never got sacred on the silks because I knew Tony was there with me to help me fix my mistakes and make me smile. but what would happen if he die what would happen if he cold never do the things he loves again.  

" awe come on wimp grow a pair of boobs and just open the dam door." I yelled at my self in my head.

I took one last deep breath and opened the door. there he was a motionless Tony just laying there asleep. I felt tears slip down my cheek. he was covered in scrapes and bruises and he had a cast on his left arm. it was neon green. his favorite color. this is the only thing that made me a little happy.

I put my bag on a wooden shelf that held some pillows and sheets. I looked around the room. there was a window that gave off a beautiful view of a brick wall. there was a small flat screen TV on the wall opposite of Tony. there was a bathroom it was small but had a shower and sink and well of Corse a toilet what bathroom wouldn't.

I sat in a chair right next to Tony's bed. I held his hand and it was cold like he was just standing outside in winter without gloves. I knew a few tears were streaming down my face again.

" Tony. um.... hi.." I say not knowing what to say knowing he wasn't going to talk back.

" Tony I miss you." I say my voice cracking. I start to cry

" I miss your smile I miss when you make me laugh. hell Tony I miss your burps because in the end they always made me laugh." I say in between sobs

" Tony please wake up soon I miss you so much." yup I did it I'm sobbing now.

" oh holy lord you scared the livin day lights out of me." an older lady nurse said coming into the room with a computer cart.

" I.......I.....I'm....s....sorry." I say try to stop the crying but failing miserably.

"oh sweet heart what's wrong." she said sitting in a chair right across from me.

"he...he's my boyfriend ...he...he....he s....saved...m...my life and......now...he's..l...l...l...like this. "

"oh hun I know what it feels like to be this way it's hard and well you miss them so much it just breaks you."

I nodded and sobbed even harder and buried my head in my hands.

"I'm going to take a few tests now Hun and then I'll be back in an hour or so alright sweetheart. he'll wake up soon I promise Hun I promise."

"t...thanks."

"your welcome hun."

the nice nurse that I didn't get the name of quickly taking vitals from Tony then leaving the room.

I squeezed Tony's hand then turned on the TV and watched a few stuff before falling asleep.

That night I prayed in my sleep that Tony would wake up soon. I love you Tony please come back to me."

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