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please Tony

Its been a week. A WEEK SINCE I LAST HEARD HIM. SINCE I LAST SAW THOSE EYES OF HIS SINCE HE MADE ME SMILE SINCE I LAST SMILED A TRUE SMILE. yes I am going a little crazy right now but you can go to hell if your judging me. just f off and leave me alone.

The doctor says Tony might wake up soon but I don't believe him because he says that every day. he also say that I should keep talking to Tony because they can sometimes hear you and it may help them out of their sleep. What dose he know has he ever been in a coma noooooo. well I'm not for sure of that because I don't want to get in his personal life so yeah he might have.

I just came up from lunch and it's been a few days since I cried and it's building up on me. I Don't want to cry anymore. I'm tired of crying. I'm tired of talking to someone who wouldn't talk back to me. right now if Tony woke up he would think I'm a total creeper.

I was struggling against the burn in my eyes. the tears that were forming around my eye. but I couldn't stop the tears from spilling over. after the first few tears fell I couldn't stop the river from flowing from my eyes. then the sobs came. freakedy freak freak. stupid tears stupid sadness.

"Tony....." my voice cracked

I walked over to the bed and carefully climbed into the bed. laying my head on his chest listening to his slow heart beats.  

"please Tony...." my voice breaks off again and I burst into tears.

I could not stop if I wanted to. no one could have stopped my from crying my soul out onto Tony's hospital gown .

except Tony.

"Tony I miss you so much."

"Tony I love you."

" please Tony. just say something please."

I cry so hard my whole body shakes. my head throbs. my ears ring. my tears run even more. I couldn't stop from crying so hard that I would pass out in five minuets.

"I want my smiling happy lively Tony back."

"please come back to me."

I grabbed onto his gown and buried my face into his chest as I cried. I was breathing hard trying to catch my breath in between sobs.

arms wrapped around me pulling my closer to Tony rubbing circles in my back trying to comfort me. stupid them it wasn't going to wake up Tony and it wasn't going to get me to stop crying. idiot.

WAIT!!!!!!!!!

"TONY"  I push my self up so I can see his face.

his emerald eyes were staring back at me and a smile was tugged onto his lips.

"TONY" I say wrapping my arms tightly around his neck

I couldn't help but cry even harder because I was so happy. I was so shocked. I was so thankful. Tony was back to me awake.

" you basterd don't scare me like that again." I cried into his ear.

I felt his chest rumble with laughter.

"I promise." he whispers into my ear.

his warm breath tickled my neck sending shivers down my spine. the good shivers that make you feel good. his hands were wrapped tightly around me like he was the only thing left in the world and he was scared to lose me. I'm sure I was doing the same thing though.

Tony pulled back and took my face into his hands looking me over worry sketched into his face.

" are you alright are you hurt." he says

" you dumbass I'm fine I wasn't the one in the coma for a week." I say kissing the tip of his nose

" I was out for a week?" he questioned. confusion now taking over his face.

I nodded tears still slipping down my cheek. he rubbed them away with hid hand and brought my lips to his. his soft loving kiss warmed my whole body. I pulled away gaining breath again and then laid down placing my head on Tony's Shoulder.

"what woke you up." I asked him curiously.

"well.... I heard you crying and I said to myself. ' I'm going to hurt that basterd that did anything to you." he says in a sigh then his lips pulled into a big smile

"turns out that basterd was me."

"well you are a basterd."i say like I'm trying to say it nicely

" well I wouldn't be talking missy." he shot back at me making me laugh

my lungs were filled with new air. I laughed for the first time since the accident. I was filled with happiness and joy. I felt as light as a feather now. I felt like some one lifted the boulder that was plunged on top of me. like some one saved me.

well some one did save me and that person was Tony.

it could only be Tony

no one else could ever make me this happy.

Ever no one but Tony

God my life would be no life at all without him

I pulled Tony's lips to mine. kissing him hungrily wanting him so badly to kiss me again because I missed him so much and I never want him to leave again. 

" Tony I missed you so much please don't ever leave me again and I swear if you die I'll kill you." I say I smile revealing its self on my lips

" I love you Jamie and I promise never to porously get myself into a coma again if you promise me you'll marry me in the future." he says looking straight into my eyes. his face filled with seriousness.

" YOUR STUPID YOU ASKED ME EVEN THOUGH YOU ALREADY KNOW THE ANSWER." I yelled at him making him smirk.

I kissed him again passionately. I pull away to answer him

" dose that answer your question idiot."

" yupp." he said popping the p and pulling me back in for another kiss.

"promise to keep this a secret from our parents." I whisper to him.

" of course my love." he say bringing my lips back to his.

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