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i sat there on Tony's lap frozen as i saw both a blue and pink bundle squirmed in each of his arms while they made whining noises. Tony pushed me forward off his lap and i stood up and walked over to Allen. he started to hand me a baby and before i could say anything he handed me a little baby boy.  i stood there gently rocking him back and forth smiling down at the baby making little grunting noises.

"how's mom." i asked.

"she's in recovery she'll be fine." i nodded.

"what's their names."

"the baby girl is Meloney. and the boy he's named after his great grandfather George. " i smiled down at the George in my arms.

Tony came behind me and wrapped his arms around my waist and pulled me close to him and he rested his chin on my shoulder. " hey bud. i'm your big sisters boyfriend and i'm also a family friend but i don't think your older sis introduced her self yet but this is Jamie and I'm Tony."

i looked over at him with a smile. he kissed my cheek then whispered into my ear. "maybe one day in the future this would be us with our kid in your arms. " i smiled then looked over at him and gave him a small kiss on the lips.  

" Tony would you like to hold Meloney." Allen asked Tony. Tony nodded yes.

Tony smiled down at the baby girl. " hey Mel i'm Tony this is your older sister Jamie." she grunted and whined. he nudged me with his elbow. "she has your hair Jamie." the little girl had a full head of brown hair that looked exactly like mine and mine was like my mother's. i smiled.

i looked up at Allen he was smiling at both of us. " Jamie and Tony do you think you can watch the twins for a few moments while i check on your mom." i nodded wanting him to be with my mom.

when Allen left the room Tony turned to me with Mel in his arms and then he picked up her little arm and started waving it toward me. "hey look Jamie she's waving at you."

"Tony stop play with Mel like she's a baby doll."

"well she is a baby and she dose have a doll face."

"your such an idiot."

"hey no somewhat foul language near the babies."

we both start to laugh then we quiet down a little. Tony looked over at me with a serious face.

"hey Jamie."

"muhumm." i mumbled

"do you ever see kids in our future i mean as in our own children. "

"defiantly."

"how many?"

"six."

"six i was thinking more like three but the more the merrier." i smiled at him.

" hey what's wrong Tony." Tony had an upset face on.

"it's not important right now just forget about it."

"alright but if you ever need to talk to me you know i'm right by your side OK." he nodded.

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after an hour or so Tony drove us home he hadn't really talked that much after our little talk in the hospital room.

"Tony are you sure your OK you look a little upset. "

"Jamie i said i was alright would you just leave it alone." Tony burst at me.

i sat there stunned with my mouth hanging open a little.

"fine i'm sorry i'm annoying and don't give you alot of space. " i said facing toward the window of the car as Tony pulled into the Drive way.

"Jamie i didn't mean it that way i'm sorry i didn't mean to yell at you."

i got out of the car and started walking toward the door. "it's fine everyone needs space."

"Jamie wait i'm sorry please listen."

i kept walking not wanting to hear what he had to say anymore. i get it. he wants space so i'm just going to give him some. i went inside and started toward the stairs. Tony grabbed my waist and turned me toward him.

"Dammit Jamie your mad at me when i don't want to talk and you walk away when i change my mind and try to tell you. why do you have to be so stubborn. "

"excuse me. i'm sorry i'm not the one who asked well let me rephrase that yelled for space then hate when i trey to make space. what's wrong with that Tony."

i try to pull away from his grasp but he dosn't let go. " Tony let go of me."

"no."

"Tony let go of me."

" Jamie i can't let you walk away."

i felt warm tears run down my cheeks. why was he doing this."Tony just leave me alone."

" never I love you Jamie i Don't want to leave your side. please just listen to me," he got down on his knees." please Jamie just listen to me."  i bit my lip and then knelt down in front of Tony still tears were streaming down my face.

" Jamie i'm so sorry i never meant to yell at you it was just a lot of stuff was going threw my head and i just didn't have control of what came out of my mouth you know i would never mean to hurt you." i nodded the tears flooding my eyes even more.

" i'm sorry i'm stubborn Tony." i said whimpering a little bit."

"no Jamie it's a part of you i love to death. i love your stubbornness it's what makes you you and i fell in love with you and no one else. i will never love any one else more than i will love you and i want you to remember that OK."

i nodded in response having even more tears run down my soggy cheeks. " i love you too Tony."

Tony placed his Strong hands on my cheeks and started to wipe away my tears and that's when i noticed he also had some tears of his own. i smiled at him threw my tears and wiped them away. he brought his lips to mine and rested his forehead on mine and took a deep breath.

" Jamie?"

"mmmm." i mumbled

" i want to go to college."

no no no no no that was the worst possible thing he could have said. i started to cry. wait more like sob.

"i'm sorry Tony." i said getting up and walking away from him and went to my room. and cried.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~A/N~~~~~~~~~~~~

so sorry guys i'm such an ass

not updating in a long time then leaving you people hanging like this i'm sorry but it has to happen i'll try to post this weekend but my life is unpredictable                                   

mostly because i dont pay attention whats going on soooooo yeah

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