In this time in my life, i have finally began to actually figure out the plan of my whole life and even then i am finally realizing that i have lost all faith in anything above or below. I have come to peace with all the demons in my head in the first place and no matter how many there are, it still doesn't even add up to the happiness in my life. The happiness overweighs the demons in my brain. There is no more god, i only believe in the matter of subject around me. Subjects make up matter and the world was not created by one man, in my mind at least. I am not losing my mind , i am finding it instead. I have lost everyone that doesn't matter to my life in the past in the year, and i have learned that, that is the way that things should have been all along.
I am coming to grips with the life that i have now and i'm very appreciated for it in the subject that is my life. I am searching for answers and hopefully i can find them in my mind sooner or later. Right now is the building period for my life, and i am okay with these things. I love my life, i just have to find something new to believe in, a new belief system basically , i am leaving the church and finding my own way to connect to something, probably involving music. Getting out more with photography and my music, to find a brighter platform and to feel even better as the man that i have grown to be.
