~Summers P.O.V~
I woke up in a flash. We have school today.
I tried to shake Harry awake. What the hell was this kid on, like some kind of sleeping pill? jesus, if there was 100 screaming kids in his ear he wouldn't even wake up.
"Harry!" No answer
"HARRY!" still nothing,
"Fine, if you dont get up you get no kisses" I said while folding my arms.
"IM UP!" He said sitting up quick. Ugh
I scoffed. What ever.
"We have school today" I said. He pulled me ontop of him and kissed me.
I smiled into the kiss but that didn't stop me from thinking of school
"Harry, stop, im not fucking around"
"Kay well have fun, cause im not going" he said in a rude tone.
Really. this is how hes gonna treat me.
I rolled my eyes and got off him. I grabbed some clothes and headed to the bathroom.
Im already tired of harry and its only 7:00 A.M. this is going to be a long day.
I started the shower and took off my clothes. I checked to see if it was the right temperature and then stepped in.
After I finished everything I got dressed and went back to the bedroom where harry was still sleeping. I rolled my eyes again and then grabbed the hair dryer.
"Are you sure your not gonna come to school?"
"Yes im fucking sure, just shut up will you?"
I sighed, great, told you it wouldn't be long until things went wrong.
"What if they bully me?" I asked in just above a whisper but he still heard me.
"I wouldn't blame them, god I would too"
That was it for me. I threw my hair in a pony tail, it still being slightly wet. I wiped the tears off my face and sniffled.
Harry sat up from the bed and looked at me. His eyes filled with regret and he was about to talk.
"Save it" I whispered.
I applied some mascara and cover up on my face and put on my black converse. I grabbed my school bag and left without saying another word to Harry.
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I arrived at school in about ten minutes, I couldn't believe Harry.
I heard whispers, they were crule. "I heard her and Harry broke up" "What a slut" "How much guys do you think shes slept with so far?" I slammed my locker shut and closed my eyes shut. Do they not understand that I can hear them?
Im so done with this school and everyone and the world. I wish it would all just end.
I ran out as fast as I could. I think I know where im going.
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I went to the spot I used to go with my mom when I was a kid. Its beautiful out here, its a perfect place to show your kid or your husband, ill never have that. everywhere I go im a walking disaster. No one likes me. I'd be better off dead.
I felt the tears stream down my face before I colapsed and started sobbing.
I sat like that just sobbing for about 10 minutes before I felt my phone go off. I looked at who it was through my blurry vison. Harry. This is just great, the last person I want to talk to or see. I let it go to voice mail and continued crying.
"Summer, I know your there I just wanted to say im sorry for everything I did this morning, the school called and said you weren't at school, are you okay. Please answer me!"
I couldn't handle this anymore. I set my phone up on record and sat down so that the camera could see me. I clicked start .
"Hi, uh my names summer, recently i've been going through a really tough time, so tough that I can't handle it anymore...."I paused and continued.
"I-I don't know why you all hate me so much, but then I thought never mind because I- I uh hate me too"
"I have no one. Everyone is here for one thing, to make my life a living hell, I can't live life like this anymore and im pretty sure by the time you see this video ill already be gone"
"Id just like to thank my dad for this and all the kids at school, thank you for making me realize how much of a horrible person I am"
"You guys have broken me down so much"
"I always used to think about how I was "so strong""
"I realized im not. anyways this was my final good bye. I'll finally be free, ill finally be able to see my mom again"
"I hope your all happy" And with that I ended it.
I posted it to facebook and waited for some comments to come in.
"Attention whore"
"Drama queen"
"Finally"
then I got to Harrys comment
"Summer, stop, I love you, Im here for you, please just dont do anything and call me, if this really is the end, I want one last good bye" I laughed a little, he was one of the reasons I was doing this.
I waited a bit longer. I couldn't bring myself to walk over the edge, not yet anyway.
I was crying so much it felt like my chest would burst. I couldn't breath, I've been pacing back a forth for about ten minutes.
I walked over to the edge and looked down, I guess this really is the end. I could be free and live life peacefully. I closed my eyes and just forgot about everything.
1......
I hope its peacefull up there.....
2......
Ill finally be with mom....
3...---
Someone pulled me back, I was sobbing so hard right now, I must have looked like an idiot.
"Summer!" Harrys voice yelled.
"I WANTED TO DIE!" I screamed.
"I WANT TO DIE!"
"WHY COULDN'T YOU JUST LET ME GO!"
Harry was rocking back in forth with me in his lap, not daring to let go, probably afraid that I would run and never come back.
"I wanted to die" I sobbed silently and whispered this over and over again.
"Please Summer stop!" Harry sounded like he was breaking.
I opened my eyes and seen that he was crying.
"Please just let me go"
everything went black
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