Dear Friend,

December 7, 2013

Dear friend,

     Have you ever heard of a thing called "Secret Santa?" It's this activity where a group of friends draw names out of a hat, and they are supposed to buy a lot of Christmas presents for whatever person they choose. The presents are "secretly" placed in their lockers when they're not there. Then, at the end, you have a party, and all the people reveal who they really are as they give their last presents. Jenny started doing this with her group of friends three years ago. Now, it's some tradition. And supposedly the party at the end is always the best of the year. It happens the night after our last day of school before the break. I don't know who got me. I got Ben. I'm really glad I got Ben even though I wished for Jenny. I haven't seen Ben in a few weeks except in art class because he has been spending most of his time with Brad, so thinking about presents is a good way to think about him. The first present is going to be a mix tape. I just know that it should. I already have the songs picked and a theme. The first side has a lot of songs are by the Village People and Blondie because Ben likes that type of music a lot. It also has Smells Like Teen Spirit by Nirvana, which Jenny and Ben love. 

     But the second side is the one I like the most. It has winter kind of songs. Here they are:

      Asleep by the Smiths Vapour Trail by Ride Scarborough Fair by Simon and Garfunkel A Whiter Shade of Pale by Procol Harum Time of No Reply by Nick Drake Dear Prudence by the Beatles Gypsy by Suzanne Vega Nights in White Satin by the Moody Blues Daydream by Smashing Pumpkins Dusk by Genesis (before Phil Collins was even in the band!) MLK by Ubleb Blackbird by the Beatles Landslide by Fleetwood Mac And finally ... Asleep by the Smiths (again!) 

     I spent all night working on it, and I hope Ben likes it as much as I do. Especially the second side. I hope it's the kind of second side that he can listen to whenever he drives alone and feel like he belongs to something whenever he's sad. I hope it can be that for him. 

     I had an amazing feeling when I finally held the tape in my hand. I just thought to myself that in the palm of my hand, there was this one tape that had all of these memories and feelings and great joy and sadness. Right there in the palm of my hand. And I thought about how many people have loved those songs. And how many people got through a lot of bad times because of those songs. And how many people enjoyed good times with those songs. And how much those songs really mean. 

     I think it would be great to have written one of those songs. I bet if I wrote one of them, I would be very proud. I hope the people who wrote those of songs are happy. I hope that they feel it's enough. I really do because they've made me happy. And I'm only one person. 

     I have not told you about Ted in a while. But I guess there's not a lot to tell because he just keeps giving me books that he doesn't give his other students, and I keep reading them, and he keeps asking me to write papers, and I do. In the last month or so, I have read The Great Gatsby and A Separate Peace. I am starting to see a real trend in the kind of books Ted gives me to read. And just like the tape of songs, it is amazing to hold each of them in the palm of my hand. They are all my favorites. All of them. 

     Love always,

     Daniel