Faking It 2 || Harlena

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SELENA

Ever since, I left London to go and study to Texas all I felt was my heart breaking. I'm hurt. I'm hurt because Harry doesn't love me back. I'm hurt because I was stupid. The day when I left was the day I regret that I left too. Living in Texas was fun but the environment got me lost.

A couple of months later, I'm pregnant with Edward. My mom and dad and even Louis who was touring came to Texas to guide me through the pregnancy thing. I know it's Harry's baby because he's the only guy that I give my whole self to. At first, I want to abort it. Yes, you read it right. I want to kill the baby. But you can't blame me. I'm so young to have one. I'm studying that got me all worked up then the baby came. All I want is to abort it but Louis knock some senses in me.

"Are you an idiot?! I know you are but Jesus Christ it's a baby, a human being. I know you're not a kind of person who intentionally kills a human even you hated it." I remember Louis said. Time flies and I accept it. I accept to be a young mother. I accept that I'm carrying a human being inside of me and I accept the I will bring a child to this world.

When Edward came, all I think is him. Not Harry, not even myself. I fell in love instantly. I focused myself at him not with anyone else. He lights up my world like nobody else. Not even Harry does. He's like my Boy Almighty. After, I deliver Edward into this world. I decided that I can't depend on my parents and grandparents for me and him to live so I audition and got the lead role in Spring Breakers. I became an instant celebrity and I'm not afraid to tell the world about Edward.

But when I saw Harry at one of their concert. I feel afraid. There's some reasons why I can't tell him, he's the father. First, I don't know how. Second, I'm afraid he'll take away Edward from me and Third, he would not accept him. When I realize I was pregnant all I can think about is to fly back to London, go to one of the live shows of The XFactor and tell him that he's the father and we can live happily ever after.

BUT

I thought about his future. He wants to be a singer and I don't want to be the one who will ruin it for him. I don't want to be the reason why he can't be a singer just like he dream to be just because he knocked me up.

So, when I saw him, I feel myself getting back to the hole again and instantly fall for him again. I appreciate that he was getting along with Edward and stuffs. I can tell that he will be a great father to him. But I'm afraid that if he knows he will get Edward from me. He will take away the only light that make me going when he wasn't there.

Another reason, why I don't want Harry to know is for my sake. I don't want to be heart broken again. I don't want to have a high hope that he will be by my side to raise Edward the leave me. I don't want that to happen again. One is enough. Two is too much. When we do the deed and I heard him saying other girls name was horrendous but repeating that again will be the death of me. Exaggerated much? But that was I see.

Once you trust a person, you will have a hard time giving you're whole trust to that person again. But when he start to gain it I know I will be doomed and fall again.

I'm just scared. I'm just scared of everything that will happen.

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"Hey, Sel." Harry called. He was in the kitchen baking something. I walked and peek my head to see him.

"What?" I ask. He looks up and smiled.

"Louis will throw a party at a certain club. Can I go? You can come too if you want." He said while mixing something.

"Okay. And I don't want to. I want to hang back here and take care of Edward." I said. He smiled.

"Thanks. Want to help me?" He said. I frowned.

"What are you baking?" I asked while walking to him.

"Cupcakes. I want to experiment things." He said. I nodded and help him.

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"Harry, you idiot! Now, we made a mess." I told him and smack his chest.

"What?! It's pretty funny." He said while laughing. I dipped my hand on the bowl that has whipped cream on it and put it on his cheeks.

"You did not just do that." Harry said. Edward was here too laughing.

"And you, little guy, you are supporting your mom with it." He said. He dip his both hands in the bowl.

"The two of you were so dead." He said and I picked up Edward and shrieked.

"Come on, Edward." I said and ran while laughing but Harry has long legs so he caught us. Put the whipped cream all over our face.

"Ewww!" Edward said and Harry help me stand up.

"That's what you get sport when you're approving your mom and her crimes. You and I are partners here not the other way around." He said and I raise my brows.

"Are you saying that my son should turn his back to me?" I said and put my hands on my hips.

"Maybe. Maybe not." He said and I smack his chest playfully.

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Evening came and Harry was currently putting on his black tee.

"Don't drink. Don't do anything that you will regret and tell Louis that too." I said and he chuckled.

"Yes, mother." He said.

"I'm serious, Harry." I said and he smiled before pulling me closer to him.

"I know. You just need to trust me." He said.

"I do trust you." I said and he sighed.

"I feel that you don't fully but that's okay." He said. I sighed and hug him. I walk him to the front door and hug him again. I don't want him to go.

"I love you, Harry." I said.

"I love you too. Now, give me a peck." He said and I giggled.

"You are so needy." I said and kissed him. I watched his car drove away and I go back to my room.

In the middle of my sleep, my phone buzz. I frowned and reached for my phone. I unlocked and saw a text from a unknown person.

From: Unknown

Look, you're a delusional freak to say that Harry is in love with you but he isn't over me, bitch. He still loves me and we had fun in my bed. Here's the vid if you want proof. -Haillee.

The biggest mistake that I ever done in my whole life was opening that video and tears start prickling to my eyes. How could he?! The video was lasted for 2 minutes of full betrayal and hatred and I don't know why I made it out and watched it the whole time. The quote was true.

"All good parties must come to an end."

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A/n: How was it? Don't forget to vote and comment. That's kinda sad. 😰 But I'm evil. 😁 Harry's POV for the next chapter.

I'm afraid to announce that there will be 4 chapters left for the Faking It series. I feel emotional. 😩😩

Question. 4: What is the song that you're most excited to hear from Harry's album?

All of them and Sweet Creatures will drop tomorrow midnight and Slow Hands on May 4. I'm excited for the boys and Selena killed the MetGala today. 💞💞

Thanks,

Yricka