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Chapter 11

Nandito na ako sa room ko all by myself, nakahiga at nagiisip, how can I explain this to Xander? Babae ako! And I know whats right! Hindi ko pwedeng ibigay ang sarili ko sa lalake agad agad! I can't do that! I'm well disciplined! I've been taught by my mother on how to keep my precious jewel until I get married! It doesn't mean ibibigay ko ang sarili ko sa kanya because he wants to do it! I know mukha akong liberated sa paningin niyo but I'm clean! I'm practically innocent! I don't want to take this jewel away from me in this age! I'm not like those girls who doesn't give their virginity an importance, I want to make my future husband happy at tsaka mga parents ko! I have the right to defend myself​! I'm a clean innocent being! Everything in me is innocent except for my lips kaseh I know they've been taken away from me but nevermind! The only thing I'm worried about is, if mawawala ko ang virginity ko this early I will truly regret it and even worse kapag mabubuntis ako! I don't have the chance to bring it back! I need to take care of this, it's not the right time and it is not the right thing to do for now! I'm aware na of this, I hope that Xander can understand :-(

I'm packing my things already, babalik na ako sa Maynila, do you think is the right thing to do? Am I really gonna stay away from him for now? Or we will talk about it? Hay!!! Please help me guyz I don't know what to do! This situation is really confusing me right now, I swear! I should make up my mind from now, I should take time, pero how can I make up my brain kapag nagpapanic ako, time would be useless you know! I should relax muna, I should take some sleep, pagod ako sa kaiisip, I need to rest! Okay!? Kuha nyo!?

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I made up my mind already, I should talk to him... This is the only solution so that our relationship will last longer kung maguusap ako sa kanya about what happened last night, I hope he could understand tsaka maka relate sa mga sasabihin ko, I know he's not that hard to convince, matino naman so Xander kausapin, I know him, boyfriend ko siya..

Nang ready na ako magusap Kay Xander, I got off my bed and I fixed it, nagmamadali ako papuntang bathroom para maka wash ng face tsaka maka tooth brush. After doing those, I changed my clothes into new ones para mas ganda ako titingnan, when I got to his door,nag isip ako muna trying to prepare my senses para makapag usap ko siya ng diretso, when I have the courage to knock ede nag knock ako two times pero parang no one's in the room to open the door for me, I knock the door two times again pero parang wala siya sa loob, gawd! Its 8:00 am already sana gising na siya...

"Xander..."I called his name and then knock in the same time pero wala pa rin so I made up my mind to call him nalang...

I'm calling him already and I was like *come on Xander please pick up the phone* pero hindi niya sinasagot, I'm worried tuloy..ano bah Xander!? Iniwan mo ako dito!? Nakakainis ka naman oh!!! Pick up the phone! It's your girlfriend! Sabi ng phone ko try calling later!?? Later!? I don't have enough time Xander!? Tinawag ko siya ulit, I put my right hand on my waist and the other one in my ear,I'm whispering "please pick it up Xander please" pero hindi niya sinasagot, Xander what's up with you!! Iniiwasan mo na bah ako!! Hindi mo na ba ako love? Come on Xander!! I need to talk with you right now and I know you will explain also! So please pick up the phone okay!? I waited in his door knocking na naman! Pero if that's what you want! Then okay! I'll leave you alone!! I don't want to waste my time with someone who can't waste there time for me!! Babalik na ako sa Maynila!! Kumag ka!! I hate you!!!

I was walking in the main floor with my bags, I stop over sa cashier nila, sabi ko " mag checheck out na ako plesh!! Emergency po talaga!!!" And opkors kapag emergency, nagpapanic narin sila, they gave the excess cash back pero hindi ko yun tinanggap I told them nah, "tip nyo na yan, thank you!" I said walking to the main exit and ayun! I hired a taxi back to Manila! Bahala ka Xander sa buhay mo! I hate you! 👅

Xander's POV

Whoa! What happened last night! Oh yeah yung si Maggie, she left me while we're making love, Oo nga noh? Binitin niya ako, I can't believe want I did to her, kasalanan ko yun, I shouldn't did that to Maggie, pormal siyang babae and I don't want to disrespect her. Alam ko namang mali ang ginawa ko last night! Grabeh!! And pathetic ko... Bigla ko nalang siya hinalikan and until now I can't get over with it! I'm angry at myself and us! Binitin niya ako and hanggang ngayon I'm still with a boner, ang manyak ko talaga! This is the cause of too much watching adult videos alam nyu nayun guys? Dibah? Yan kasi kapag lalaki eh, kailangang maka release, cause narin sa mga kabarkada ko! They've influenced me to this, ngayun ko lang nagka gf at first time kong girlfriend si Maggie kaya ayaw ko siyang saktan! Pero how about if she thought the wrong thing! baka sinasaktan ko na siya that time, i feel guilty and disgusting, I feel manipulated tsaka bastos, I shouldn't have don't that!

When I open my phone I have tons of missed calls from Maggie, I feel guilty na naman tuloy! This is all my fault sinilent ko kasi ang phone ko kagabi, ang gago ko talaga!

I tried calling her back pero hindi niya sinasagot I bet she turned her phone off, I got out to her door in her room pero hindi narin siya sumasagot, I walked down the main floor tsaka tinanong ko yung mga cashier tsaka mga staffs sabi nila nag check out na si Ms.Maggie Mendez nung last 40 minutes na daw!!! Hay!!! I love my life talaga hah!! I can't lose her!! I just can't now!! Kasalanan mo to Xander hindi mo kasi kinontrol and sarili mo kaya iniiwasan ka na niya! Resulta na'to sa kagaguhan mo kumag! Arghhhh!!! I hate myself!!!

Dali Dali ko nang pina pack ang mga bags ko tsaka tumakbo agad, when I reached the main floor pumunta ako sa cashier, I need to check out as soon as possible ASAP!! they gave my the excess cash pero tinanggi ko yun, I told them it's a present from me, "thank u for letting me stay in this hotel" I said running pero Shett!!! Na basa ako tuloy, umuulan na pala hay!!! Thanks Jesus na suot ko ang black jacket ko! Are you cursing me now! Hah!!! I hate it nah!!! Paano na ako makarating Kay Maggie nito kapag umuulan ng ganito ka lakas! Kaunti nalang ang dumadaan na taxi! Pero Thank God nakahanap ako ng isa! Sana makaabot ako Kay Maggie agad! I really need to explain! I can't lose her! I love that woman!! I love her so much!! I'm sorry talaga Maggie! I will face the consequences you want me to face basta hindi lang tayo mahihiwalay tsaka mag aaway!!! I want you to know that I love YOU!!!

I promise I will never do that again! I promise talaga that I will respect you like you are my queen I'm sorry for doing that!!! I'm sorry!!! :-(

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END OF CHAPTER ELEVEN
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