In the sidelines

That boy, that girl

JERIC'S POV

@cayisabelle: Graduation jitters! 😂 #ThisIsIt #wishyouwerehere

@wilLAREVILLAme: So proud of my cum laude @cayisabelle! Congratulations! 😍 *iglink of Cay marching and accepting her reward*

@iamthomastorres: Graduation lunch for the cum laude @cayisabelle #proudCousin #mabaitdahillibre 😂😂😂

@cayisabelle: Couldn't imagine 5 years of my college life without them. I love you girlies @patcruz @cuyestvz @sambully @thordlcrz @angietamin @sethperez *iglink of Cay and her friends with their diplomas and medal*

@cayisabelle: This one goes to the person who was my first lunch buddy 5 years ago, my alalay and #1 believer. #wishyouwerehere *iglink of Cay kissing her medal*

@tammycruz: Congrats girlfriend! 😘😘😘 Ikaw ha, you should update me! Tag ko siya you want? LOL. @cayisabelle

@cayisabelle: I'll message you! 😂😂 I love you girly will treat you lunch the soonest! 😘

Hay, Isabelle! I miss you. Imiss you so much..... it hurts.

@tengjeric: So proud of my princess. 👑 You deserve it!

It has been the hardest, longest 2 weeks of my life. Two weeks since I last talked nor saw Cay face to face, I am quite impressed because she really is successful in avoiding me. I miss her so much, I miss her so bad. Two weeks came by so fast, parang kakatapos lang ng season and now, start na ulit. Kahit anong practice ko and training, I cannot still find my focus and even loss the drive to continue to play ball. There came a point in this two weeks in which I questioned myself if I really want to pursue my basketball career. Everything is a blur right now, no sense. Para bang lahat doesn't matter if she's not with me. Haaay, if only I could turn back time.

...flashback...

Yesterday, I saw LA at the Theraphy center, buti na lang hindi niya kasama si Cay kung hindi I would have hugged her tight and ask her or even plead to come back to me. Pero I guess, that would make things worst than it is now. She chose to be with LA, knowing her, she would stand by her decision eventhough it would hurt her. Gusto ko man lumaban for our love, its too late. I feel like I had already lose this fight even without it starting. I lost her.. Again.

Jeron: Kuya, sabi ni Dad let's play ball daw. Di porket off yung season you'll stay in bed the whole day.

Jeric: Pass muna ako shoti, wala ako sa mood.

Jeron: Dad's so worried about you, Kuya. Ano bang nangyayari?

Jeric: Its nothing, shoti. Wala lang ako sa mood.

Jeron: Kuya, ako pa ba lolokohin mo? Share it to me. Malay mo, kahit papano mabawasan yung burden mo.

Jeric: *sits up straight* Wala na siya, shoti. Wala na naman siya. Hinayaan ko na naman siyang mawala. I didn't even had the courage to fight for her.. For us. Sabi ko sa kanya noon, we will fight, we will make it out together basta we'll stay on the same team. Pero hindi, iniwan niya ako. Iniwan niya ako because she needs to be with LA. I don't know if she wants to be with him, pero I know her. Doon siya sa alam niyang tama.. And the right thing is to stay with his boyfriend. Ang sakit kasi eh. *cries* Ilang years na kaming dalawa lang.. Andyan na siya eh. All she ever wanted to hear from me was an affirmation that we were on the same page. That I love her too. Pero anong ginawa ko? Wala. Wala akong ginawa. Stupid.