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JERIC'S POV

February 14, 2014

Happy heart's day, Cay. I love you.. still. Always will, always have.

I know I look pathetic watching Cay from afar, so happy and in love with LA. I look more pathetic because of these tears I can't contain. She loves this kind of dinner date, yung something romantic, just like the movies. Sabi niya kasi, kapag ganun daw yun date na binigay sa kanya, 100% na effort from the guy dahil medyo mahirap nga naman gawin yung date. Haaay. I know I could have given that to her before, yung date na binigay ni LA sakanya, I know I could do way better than that. I could have seen those happy tears because of me.. That should really be me. :(

Kat: Jeric, tara na? Hindi ka pa kumakain eh. Pagod ka na rin for sure from practice. *smiles* Let's go? Let's get you home.

Jeric: Pwede 5 minutes pa? Please.

Kat: For what Jeric? You're only hurting yourself.

Jeric: I wanna see her happy. Kahit yun man lang, kahit di na ako yung nagpapasaya sa kanya. I just wanna keep a memory of her happy, smiling, laughing, not broken. 5 minutes lang Kat then we'll leave.

Kat: Jeric, you deserve to be happy too. Marami kaming kayang pumalit kay Cay. Marami kaming nagmamahal sayo at kaya kang pasiyahin. Kung bibigyan mo lang kami ng chance Jeric... I can always be her Jeric or better yet, someone better for you.

Nobody can ever and would never replace Cay... Nobody.

I stayed there for another 5 minutes watching her smile and laugh. Masaya na rin ako na ganito, at least merong isa sa amin na happy, right? When I was about to turn my back from them, I saw LA kissed her on the forehead and hugged her tight. Hanggang ngayon masakit parin kapag nakikita ko sila on that scene... Pero dapat masanay na ako, right? Bestfriend ang role mo sa buhay niya, BESTFRIEND. I tried to push my luck this time, for the last time..

Jeric: Isang sulyap lang, isang sulyap lang Cay. Malaman ko lang na you care for me. Na mali yung gagawin ko. Na somehow, you love me too and you're willing to fight with me.. Isa lang Cay.

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She lift her head and looked my way. With tears in her eyes. Meron parin kaming special connection.. Pero her eyes, it tells me to let go. Seems likes she's asking me to let her go :(

Kat: Tara na Jeric? Let's go. *smiles*

Jeric: May dadaan lang tayo, okay lang? I'll drive. Kaya ko pa naman, I'm not yet tired. Tara na.

Goodbye Cay, goodbye.

I promised that today will be the last time I'll cry over Cay.. Not because I'm tired of loving her. But because I need to be strong for her, for myself. Kailan ngayon I'll be man enough to let her go, let her be happy, and let myself be happy na rin.. kahit konti. Today will be the first day I'll let the old Jeric go and start living a new life. With somebody else in my arms. No more Jeric, no more Cay. In another life, I'll search the whole world to find you and be strong enough to fight for you and keep you to myself. In my next life Cay, I'll make sure we'll be together. This goodbye is just for now...