When The Sun Sets

Important

This isn't a chapter. I'm not even sure if you expected this or if you ever expect another chapter to come out. It's been a long time and I'm not sure if there is anyone willing to keep up with The Backroom and I can't blame them. So I have no clue if anyone has stayed to read the whole thing (it's not over just what I have so far) if you did I have no idea who you are but I thank you. I'm going to finish this book no matter how bad it is or even by a slim chance it's great.

Over the time of not uploading or whatever you want to call it I've been doing some self discovering. I've been finding out more things about my self, understanding my feelings and a lot more. Right now this is me opening up to you. I as a person at this age had been through more then some people and I'm not going to lie I don't have it the worst by far but I don't have it the best. I'm not complaining. I haven't been delt the best hand but I'm working with what I have and I think I'm doing pretty good. At a young age of 10 I was depressed maybe even farther back then that. This past year I stopped taking the medication. Why? Because I no longer need it. I beat it. It was hard and long but I'm proud it's not an easy thing to over come. This being said I'm relearning my emotions because of it. When your depressed all the bad feeling morph into one feeling and you can only describe it as sad. I'm learning what I'm feeling. I learned that it's not sadness I'm feeling but it loneliness. That was my big break through. It was the best feeling in the world. Knowing exactly how you feel and not being confused about it.

I didn't just tell you a private and sensitive part of my life for sympathy I told you so you can understand the reasons why I'm not focussed on The Backroom. I wish I was but figuring my self out is a priority. Writing isn't a big passion I have it's something I wanted to try out and I will finish it and I don't care how long it takes it will happen.

If you remember which I doubt a couple months ago I ran into a phone problem I needed to re-type everything I had. I had a chapter planed at least a month ago I just never got to finish it so I will try my very hardest to get it out by next week. Can I just mention I got motivated the week I'm super busy. My life.

Anyway that's all I had if you want to talk to me feel free to message me. I'm in the car writing this. I just felt really bad. I have no idea why. It's just the way I am. So stay with me if you can. If you saw I but the song "At My Best" up there it's the so g that's given me motivation it also goes good with the story. Sorry this was sad I felt like it needed to come out.

-Ashley