Happiness ☀︎ Wyatt Oleff

twenty ⇒ bad decisions

Wyatt (omg)

2 days later

"Wyatt, don't you think that you should at least hear her out?" Jaeden said. "I'm sure she's got a lot to explain."

"No. The picture explains everything." I said, emotionlessly.

"Dude, just give her a chance to explain." Jack said.

"Shut up, Grazer." I said, glaring at him.

"Damnit Wyatt. I think you're overreacting. She's hurting too! You should consider her feelings and stop being such a selfish dick!" Sophia shouted.

I furrowed my eyebrows. How could she say that? She doesn't even know how I feel. She doesn't even know how painful this is for me. Suddenly, I feel anger fuming over me. I stood up and shouted angrily, "You don't know what I feel like! You don't know what it feels like to see the love of your life holding hands with another guy that probably makes her happier than I ever can!"

"No, Wyatt! You just don't trust her! You don't trust her hanging out with other people! Maybe it was just a misunderstanding, why can't you just let her explain?! She's been calling and texting you for days, Wyatt. Days! Stop overreacting and let her live her goddamn life." Sophia argued back.

"GUYS! Stop fighting!" Finn shouted.

"Jesus." Jack said quietly.

Sophia turned to me and said harshly, "I can't believe you. You asshole." She said then walked out of the room angrily.

I sat down on the couch and ran my hands through my hair. I feel the tears forming in my eyes as I feel a stabbing pain in my chest. Pain is the only thing I've been feeling in the past couple of days. Other than that, I felt emotionless.

The others left already. Leaving only me and Jaeden alone in the living room. It seems like he's the only one who's on my side, like he's the only one who's there for me.

"Hey." Jaeden said softly as he sat beside me.

I looked at him, my eyes bloodshot, filled with sadness and pain. "Hey." I whispered quietly, it's barely even audible.

"Look, you're gonna be alright, okay? We're gonna fix this together." He said, softly.

I nodded slowly as I felt a single tear streaming down my face. He faintly smiled at me and pulled me into a hug.

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Holly

I sat in my trailer alone. It's been 2 days since Wyatt and I got into a fight. He has been ignoring me ever since.

During the past few days, I've been emotionless. It's like I don't feel anything. But the pain stayed with me and it never left.

"Holly?" Sebastian called out as he knocked on my trailer.

"Come in." I said, quietly.

"Uh, hey." He said softly and sat beside me on the sofa. "Are you okay?" He asks.

"Uh huh." I said with no emotion.

"Are you sure? You seem a little off."

"Yup, I-I'm sure." I said, my voice cracking a little bit.

I about thought my fight with Wyatt. It hurts to relive that memory again but it just won't stop coming back to me. I feel like it's haunting me.

Suddenly, I feel tears streaming down my face. I couldn't take the pain anymore. I tried calling Wyatt a million times but he still wouldn't answer. I also tried texting him but of course, as expected, he ignored all of my texts.

It breaks my heart that he wouldn't let me explain. What hurts the most is that he's living with the thought that I don't love him anymore. But that's not true because I love him so much, it hurts.

"Hey, shh." He said as he put my head on his shoulder and stroked my hair. "It's gonna be alright, I promise."

"N-no it's not." I said, pulling my head away from his shoulder.

"Just forget about him, Holly." He said, putting his hand on my shoulder.

"W-what?" I said, confused. "You know I can't do that." I look at him hurt and confused. I can't even bare the thought of forgetting Wyatt. It's nearly impossible to do that because I love him too much.

"Well then maybe if I do this, you could forget about him." He whispered.

Suddenly, he leaned in closer to my face and slammed his lips on mine. I closed my eyes and without thinking, kissed him back, not realizing what I'm doing. I thought of Wyatt. I thought of how caring and patient he is with me. I thought of his soft and gentle lips against mine.

I was starting to get confused because I didn't feel butterflies in my stomach. I didn't feel my heart flutter. There's something wrong. I can feel it.

Then my eyes immediately widened, only coming to my senses that he's not Wyatt. I quickly push him away while he looked at me with a confused and irritated expression on his face.

He furrowed his eyebrows and said, "What? Did I do something wrong?"

"Sebastian, you have to leave." I demanded.

"What? Why?" He asked, confused.

"Just leave me alone!" I shouted, angrily.

"Okay, jeez." He said, irritatedly then walked out, slamming the door shut.

I sat there, alone, running my hands through my hair. "Damnit, Holly. You're so stupid!" I said to myself, frustrated.

The guilt started to kick in as I felt tears streaming down my face. I put my knees up to my face as I cried to myself, the never ending tears streaming down my face.

What is wrong with me? I can't believe that I just kissed Sebastian. I can't believe that I was stupid enough to kiss him back. Why am I like this? Why do I keep on doing things that I know I will regret? My heart hurts a lot more now, thinking that I'm only going to hurt Wyatt more. Now I understand why Wyatt doesn't trust me.

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author's note:
two words; i'm sorry.