Save the Hero [BoyXBoy]

Part Seven

I couldn't think straight.

I didn't know what I was going to do. I felt like throwing up. I didn't know if what I did was an utter mistake, or if it was the right thing to do. I had called both Felix and Jaston to meet me in the cafe; the intention being to sort things out. The worst thing about it was that there wasn't anything to sort out. I was 100% positive I could live without ever letting Felix know I replaced him out of anger. I shook my head and got out of bed. Walking toward my bathroom, I peered over at my side clock. 7:28AM. I yawned and turned on my shower. At least I had some time to cool my head.

.....

It was around 2:40PM by the time I starting heading to the cafe. My hands were in my pockets, my head was in the clouds... It was then I realized how big of a mistake I made. But I had a plan. I knew what I was going to do. It was almost completely perfect. I smiled to myself.

"Hey Cry!" Jaston greeted me from inside. He quietly sipped some strong coffee out of a mug that said "I hate Mondays". He had brought his own mug. I waved and bought a cup of hot chocolate and sighed, seating down next to him.

"I need you to do something for me."

"Oh? Like what? I'm open." Jaston laughed.

"I have another friend meeting me here today. 3:30 as well," I peered at my watch. 3:26. "But he went out of the country without telling me. He came back recently. He was my...  best friend." My voice trailed off and I almost choked on tears.

"So you want me to act as if I were your new best friend? Some vengence kind of crap? I'm in!" Jaston patted my back quite harshly. I stared into his eyes with wonder. He knew exactly what I wanted. This was why he was my friend: He was loyal and kind... and incredibly inspiring.

We were siiting down with out piping hot drinks, casually telling each other jokes, when the door swung open. Felix walked in and turned his head. With a smile, he rushed to buy a hot chocolate and walked toward us. 

"Who's this?" Felix gestured with the same hand that held his three dollars worth of hot chocolate. 

"I'm Cry's best buddy," Jaston said with a welcoming grin. "And I'm Jaston. Nice to meet you." He held out his hand. Felix looked out at his open hand and then at me. He shot me a smile.

"Hey Felix." I muttered under my breath. I was sort of embarrassed with a loss for words. I didn't know what to do. I had a plan but I didn't know how to reanact it. I was to somehow show myself that Felix and I's friendship was true by, somehow, making him jealous of my bond with Jaston. If I succeeded, I'd be able to clinch our friendship by coming clean.

"So you wanted to catch up. How have you been without me?" Felix smiled. I knew it was a fake smile. His eyes kept darting toward Jaston.

"I've been good," I looked over at Jaston. "Jaston here has kept me company while you were away. I can't thank him enough."

"I thought I was your best friend." Felix grimanced.

"What?"

"Isn't that what we told each other?" I thought I saw tears line his eyes. I wanted to hug him, tell him I was joking. Why was he acting so childish? I wasn't leaving him forever. I wanted to come clean now. I didn't want to see him cry.

"But, Felix, we--"

"Here I was, feeling bad for leaving. I realize I didn't have to feel bad if I knew I was just going to be replaced."

"You've got it all wrong. You left and--"

"I'm back now." Was all he said. Tears were being so desperately choked back by Felix but before he could mask them, a single tear skidded down to his chin and was lost in a grief-striken face.

"Cry is my best friend now." I heard Jaston's voice out of nowhere. I was so dazed that I didn't see Jaston's hand stretch out for my face. I didn't take note of what he was doing, I didn't connect any pieces. He face inched closer. What was he doing? Jaston's lips crashed against my own. My mind went blank, I swear I didn't know what I was doing and where I was, until the sudden kiss was broken.

"Cry..." Jaston sighed, his cheeks turned deep red. I forgot where I was, who I was, what I was doing. I turned around but Felix was gone. His chair was empty.

Then it clicked.

Jaston had... kissed me...

I stetched my hand out, balled in a fist and started throwing hard punches at Jaston. His pleadings didn't stop me as I hit harder and harder, feeling tears steam up and cloud my eyes. I let them fall. He wasn't supposed to demonstrate that type of affection! I stopped and heaved a heavy breath. Before Jaston got a chance to say anything, I stormed out of the cafe, internally screaming for my life.

"I'm so stupid!"

In my head was nothing but my internal screams and disses aimed at myself and Jaston. I knew I was acting like a drama queen who cried whenever they didn't get what they wanted. I wanted to chase Felix, tell him it was all a blatant misunderstanding... I wanted to tell him that he was my only friend. Forget Jaston and his stupid kiss.

Where were you Felix? Whenever I needed you, you were never there...

No, that's wrong. You were always there. I was too blind so that. I ignored you regardless and now I'm paying the heavy price of regret and burden.

I needed to tell Felix that I would love for him to be my only friend.