Save the Hero [BoyXBoy]

Part Eight

My steps grew further and further apart. I was running quite fast. I was on my way to Felix's house. I couldn't bare to reason with him through the phone or text message; that'd be crude. I shook my head. I shouldn't have done that to Felix, I knew it would come back to bite me. However, I had no time to waste. If I waited too long, who knows what could've happened? Felix could run away again. I felt tears brim my eyelids once more... No, I couldn't allow myself to think that way anymore. I hurt myself once and it wouldn't be good to hurt myself again. Because, really, it was all my fault that this happened. Felix and I had more in common than we thought possible: We were both sensitive and emotionally unstable. We couldn't bare other people's emotional pain, let alone our own. I sniffled back tears as I still ran as fast as I could. Felix lived further than I thought. All the anticipation I felt whenever I drove to his house before made the trip go by so fast... I never really measured how long it actually took. But now--

"Cry!" I heard a voice zoom past. I stopped running immediately and turned around. There Felix sat on a small flight of three steps, in front of his door, with his head in his hands and gazing at me about five meters away.

"Felix?" I was running out of breath and I couldn't think of anything else other than to question his name.

"This is my house right here," He jabbed a thumb behind him. "I sat out here just to see where you'd end up. I saw you from afar..." I bit my lip at that last sentence. He was waiting for me.

"Felix," I began. In fact, I didn't know how to carry on. I said what first came to mind. "I'm sorry you had to go through that. I don't know why Jaston... kissed me. It shocked me. I swear, he was only an acquaintance to keep me company while you were away. I only did it out of anger because you didn't tell me anything... I only brought him to the cafe to make you jealous. No... Truly, I did it in order to reassure myself that... our friendship, between you and I, is real. I wanted to make sure that it was you that I trusted, and needed more. Now, I believe that. Jaston-- I don't know about him. But I do know about you. And it's you that... that I truly love." I had already began crying and my hands were covering my face. The tears had fallen and my cheeks were probably as hot as the surface of the sun. I peeked through moist fingers. Felix's eyes were wide open, staring at me. His mouth hung open as he sat on his porch. I didn't know what he was thinking. His mind was probably as empty as my own. I wasn't sure if what I did was right. It would change everything from then on, wouldn't it?

"I love you as a friend too, Cry." I thought I heard my heart shatter to pieces in my chest when I heard those words from Felix's mouth. It wasn't exactly what I meant... I really loved him with all my heart, if that were possible. I didn't know what to say so all I did was smile. My lips curled in the best smile I could forge. And it was enough for Felix. He smiled back and I heard him chuckle, looking up at me from his front steps. His face glowed in the afternoon sun. I began to walk away with tears still encrusted onto my face, the burden of false love I gave to Felix. It wasn't exactly a friendship-love I felt for Felix. I felt more than that. I felt a blazing heat radiating from him and my heart, as if we were meant to be. I couldn't keep that lie. It had to show it somehow. I had to tell him how I truly felt. When I finally made my mind up, I felt someone grip my wrist.

"Don't think I'm not going to let you go without a goodbye." Before I knew it, I was being kissed again. This time, I could feel it, acknowledge it. His lips against mine, the warmth being emitted from him and my heart... I felt like I was melting. Felix's hand still held my wrist and his soft, moist lips were still brushing against my tender lips. His eyes were closed in order to savor the moment. But I wanted to see it all. When he finally broke said kiss, he looked at my flushed face and grinned. I was utterly speechless.

"See you later, Cry." He said as he ran back to his house. He closed the door behind him. I snapped out of the trance, smiling to myself.

"See ya."