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Bottled Up (H2OVanoss)

Warning: This story does have a mention of the want to commit suicide. If you aren't prepared or get triggered by it then don't read this. 

Jonathan doesn't talk much anymore. It's almost like he's afraid of speaking to me. He feels embarrassed to release any of his emotions to me because he's afraid I'll judge him.

He'll get mad and walk away immediately, showing no emotion. It's kinda scary. I can't talk to him no matter what happens. He won't let me help him or anyone else who offers. Luke is the only one he'll open up too...but I want his trust...

3rd Person-

Jonathan sat in his room playing solitaire on his computer. Tears were running down his face. Today, he'd been assaulted online again. This time, much worse. He had never felt so dead inside until this point.

At the moment, no one was home so he could cry all he wanted. The pain was slowly seeping out of his inner bottle..

But in the game he was playing, he tried to place a black jack onto a black queen. It wouldn't go on. And the more he tried, the more he cried.

"I CANT DO ANYTHING RIGHT!!!" He yelled, throwing the mouse against the computer and he just cried.

Evan had this gut feeling something was wrong. Jonathan hadn't responded to his texts in a while. He needed to hurry up and get home.

(He drove home. Too lazy..)

He stood outside of the door and went to unlock it when he heard a crash from inside.

Jonathan.

He unlocked the door faster than anything and ran inside.

"JON!!"

Jonathan froze.

"shit...." He mumbled, wiping his face and placing a fake smile on. He walked out of the room and poked his head out of a corner to see a very worried Evan.

"Ev?"

"Oh thank god...I thought something was wrong!!" Evan said, running over and scooping the brunette into a bone crushing hug. Jonathan grunted but hugged him back, heart hurting...

Evan pulled back and pressed a hand against Jon's cheek. He looked at his eyes and frowned. Jonathan's eyes were puffy...

"Jon...have you been crying?"

Jonathan moved away and held up his hands, smiling.

"No! No. I woke up early. I haven't been able to quit yawning."

Jon's ears turned pink.

Evan's expression was ridiculous. He could see past those stupid lies. And Jon's eyes had dark bags under them showing he didn't sleep at all. Again.

Evan moved closer and grabbed the male's hands, bringing them up.

"I know that's a lie...what's wrong?"

"Nothing's wrong-"

"BULLSHIT!! Jonathan I hear that every single day! Why can't you trust me?! I've been here for you! I want to make sure you're ok because I care about you!"

"Evan its none of your business! I can't tell you anything because you'll over react!!"

"How do you know I'll over react if you haven't even told me!!"

Jonathan was so close to breaking it almost killed him. His face was red, his fists were white and all in all he wanted to scream.

He took a shaky breath and shoved past Evan to the kitchen.

"You're hopeless Evan. You wouldn't even care anyways.." He muttered, grabbing a water bottle and knocking the fridge closed with his hip.

"All I want you to do is leave me alone. You and Luke both. Is that too much to ask?!"

"No. You aren't getting out of this one Jon."

Jonathan snapped. This wave of adrenaline just rushed through him like a tsunami and he chucked the bottle at the Asian.

"You know what?! Fine!! FINE!! Ya wanna know what's on my mind???? I'm a mistake!! I don't need to be here!! My subs are dropping because of my shitty content and my friends are assholes who won't stop nagging me. Bla Bla Bla BULLSHIT!!! The pain inside hurts sooooo MUCH and I hate it!! I hate this world! I hate the people and most of all-"

He broke down and just started crying. Evan was standing there pale and in shock. He locked his lips and took a step towards the shorter male.

"I just don't think I deserve to live anymore...Evan." He looked at Evan and sobbed.

"I just want to die.."

Evan's world stopped. Nothing mattered anymore but the man that stood before him. Jonathan wasn't going anywhere. Without even thinking twice he pulled Jonathan into a bone crushing hug which made Jon stop talking.

"don't you ever say that again. ever. you can't leave your friends."

Evan pulled back and moved Jon's chin to where they were looking eye to eye.

"Delirious. You can't leave me.."

And he kissed the man.