I Can't Stop

What Am I Supposed to Do Now?

*AUTHORS NOTE!! OKAY GUYS SO.... I DECIDED THAT I WILL UPDATE TWICE A WEEK. ONCE ON THURSDAY AND ONCE ON SATURDAY. I MIGHT EVEN GET A DOUBLE UPDATE IN IF I HAVE NOTHING TO DO. I HAVE A TON OF HOMEWORK THOUGH SO I CAN NOT PROMISE THAT HAHA. HOW DID YOU GUYS ALL LIKE THE FIRST CHAPTER? HERE IS MY SECOND CHAPTER... HERE WE GO!*

I walked over toLexi, she probably saw the angry expression on my face because her mood immediately.

"Kara, what's wrong?" She asked.

"Nothing is wrong, I just hate boys." I responded.

"What did he do, I swear to God I will hurt hi-" Lexi started to say.

"Lex calm down, he meant nothing to me! He is a stupid boy. Plus, I kind of expected this. We only saw eachother like twice during the summer and he was acting suspicious." I interrupted her.

"Are you sure you are okay, I mean he cheated." Lexi investigated.

"It is not the first time." I told her. "But, yeah I am fine."

Emylee walked up to us.

"Hey guys, why do you seem all depressed?" Emylee asked.

"Trevor cheated on Kara... twice."Lexi said before I even had the chance.

"He's dead!" Emylee yelled

"Em, Lex, I love you guys so much for being concerened but I don't care! He's a stupid guy! That's what he does. I am not even sure I loved Trevor. I liked his reputation." I told them "I can not be late to science. Lexi, come on. Bye Em, have fun in English!" I yelled as Lexi and I walked to science.

Thank God I have this class with Lexi. I don't know if I could survive it without her. It was the first day and our science teacher was too lazy to make a seating chart. Lexi and I made that awkward eye contact stating that we would sit next to eachother. This class flew by fast. We just talked about the classroom rules and the teacher gave us the syllabus. So far, this day has been okay.

The bell rang and I was super excited to go to my next class! Band! I love band. I play the flute and some of my really close friends are in it! The teacher has known me forever because my brother Ian was also in band before he graduated. That is the perk of having an older sibiling that went to the same school as you. If the teachers liked your sbiling, they liked you. My band teacher happened to love Ian, so he loves me. He pretty much lets me do whatever in class because he knows I am a fine flute player.

After fifth period, history, I get to go to lunch! I always get school lunch because I never feel like making a lunch. I walk to the lunch line with Acacia and her boyfriend Michael. They are pretty much sucking each other's faces when we stop in line.

"Ew get a room!" I turned my head to see who said that and of course. Emma.

"Emma, shut up. I may not like seeing them makeout either but can you please have the decency to keep your rude comments to yourself." I yell at her.

"I would think that you would be really offendd that they are doing this right in front of you, sice Trevor cheated on your sorry ass. Seems to me that withou him you are just the third wheel, " Emma said loud enough for the people around us to hear. I heard a couple "oooh" and "burn" but frankly I did not care. All I could think about in that moment was what she said to me and that she was right.

"Shut up! When was the last time you had a boyfriend? Oh, that's right never. Maybe if you didn't spend your whole day sexting Dylan you would actuallt have a boyfriend!" I yelled back at her.

Her face went red. Everyone was cheering for me. I did not know what she was doing until it happened. The palm of her hand connectd directly to my face. It stung and I am sure that my face turned a dark red but I didn't care.

"You bitch" I shouted.

Acacia knew what was coming next so she held me back. Thankfully. I dodn't want to get in trouble on the first day of school. Acacia, Michael, and I walked out of the lunch room with food in our hands and faces with empty expressions.

"Trevor cheated on you? Why didn't yuou tell me?" Acacia asked.

"Can we not talk about this... please?" I refused to answer her question.

"No Kara! We need to talk about this! What happened and why didn't you tell me" She screamed.

"Trevor cheated on me! I walked in on him kissing another girl and I dumped him. It wasn't the first time he cheated on me so it isn't even that big of a deal. And I didn't tell you because you probably don't even care. You have a perfect life, and amzing boyfriend and i have nothing !" I yelled.

"Of course I care, and you have Lexi, and Emylee, and Abby , and I," She stated.

"Just great I have four fucking friends!" I yelled.

As soon as I yelled it I regretted it becasue I saw who was standing there and he clearly heard that whole conversation. Tommy. Why does he have to walk into my life on a time that I don't want him  here? Not only that but Acacia was on the verge of tears.

"Are we not good enough for you Kara?" She asked.

"I'm sorry I didn't mean that, you guys are amazing and I love you. Sorry I am just in a bad mood. Do you still love me?" I asked with a puppy dog face.

"Hahaha always." She stated.

"Good!" I exclaimed and hugged her.

I turned around to see if Tommy was still here but he was gone. I wonder when he left. If he saw me apoligize to Acacia maybe he won't think I am a crazy physcho bitch.

I ate silently and the rest of the day went by fast. I just had english and study hall. My english teacher is really funny and in study hall I practically do nothing.

The bell rang and I was so thankful. It was time for cheer practice. Practice was the only place I could actually have fun. I have practice with my best friends and I loved it. It was the best part of my day. Other than the fact that my coach is a terrible person but I can just ignore that because I love cheer.

I got home and my phone buzzed.

Anonymous number: Hey

Me: Ummm hi, who is this?

Anonymous number: Oh sorry, it is Tommy

Me: Oh hi! how did you get my number?

Tommy: I asked Lexi for it haha

Me: And she just gave it to you?

Tommy: Yeah pretty much

Me: Haha okay!

Our conversation went back and forth a bit like this for hours. I realized that I didn't care that Trevor cheated on me, not because I knew it was coming, but because I liked someone else. Tommy Corbin. Oh God what am I gonna do? I thought to myself.

As the days went by, my feelings for Tommy grew and grew. I texted him everyday, I talked to him in spanish, and I hung out with him during lunch. I was beggining to feel like i wasn't the third wheel. Whatever we were, Tommy and I, girls knew not to get in my way with him. He's like my territory, everyone else knows that, just not him.

It was Thanksgiving break. We had a cheer competition in about ten days. My phone starts to ring.

I answer it. "Hey Acacia! What's up?" I ask. I hear her sobbing on the other end of the line. My first thought was that Michael did something to her.

"What did he do?" I ask.

"It's not that.... I-I broke my leg." She states. I couldn't speak. I was devastated.

"Wh-what do you mean?" I asked.

"II w-was m-messing around w-with my s-sisters when I-I fell i-into a h-hole.," She said between sobs.

We have four school days before competition, which means we have four days to rechoreograph this routine. I honestly do not know if that can happen. We are losing one of our strongest bases and we can't do this competition without her.

My whole world feels like it is crashing piece by piece, bit by bit, around me.