She Will Be loved [13 Reasons Why]

Chapter Two

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Trigger warning: there will be talk of suicide in this story so each chapter will have this little note

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CHAPTER ONE PART TWO

Last on She Will Be loved

"What are you talking about, Padilla?" I ask and then the next words  that come out of his mouth makes my bag fall.

"Alex Standall is dead."

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I put my hands into fists and throw them in my hair. No. It can't be. This circle of nothing but misery. It needs to stop. Why is everything happening like this?

I find myself thinking about the little times Alex and I talked. Even talked about Hannah.

"You-You can't be serious." I open my eyes.

"Why wouldn't I be serious? Why would I ever joke about this topic ever ?" Tony puts his hands in his pockets and I see him purse his lips harder.

"Why would he do this Tony?" I look at him and his expression shows like he wants to help me. Help me?

"Clay," tony starts off and I know it has to be something serious because tony always does these type of things when he gives this big huge long speech.

"You can't think this one if your fault, can you? It's not. This one might have not been his fault. You don't even know. Some people show signs unlike what Hannah did but we all need to start-"

"I CAN"T KNOW THOUGH!" I push my knees away and I fall to the solid ground. "I can't know. We all can't know."

Tony stays where he is at. He doesn't move a muscle and really to be honest I think it is for the best he doesn't.

He inhales deeply so that I can hear it, "we all can't know. You are right by that. But we can at least figure out a way to make people's lives easier. We can reach out if it looks like someone might be having a hard time. You need to realize that Hannah and Alex weren't the only ones."

"Boys," I see Mr. Porter. 

Why is he even here? Didn't he get suspended from his job or something? Why is Mr. Porter here when he definitely shouldn't be? 

"Mr. Porter. We were just about to get to class," Tony says and then he looks over at me making me look back confusingly, "right?"

I nod and then I get up wiping away any sense I was crying off my face. 

It never stops. This feeling. The feeling of wanting to cry. I never cried so much than what I have for the last few weeks. I haven't been able to think about anything else. My job at the Crestmont has been non existent since I stopped going there.  And along with all my life I think everything is non existent. 

I grab my back pack and put it over my shoulder. I begin to walk to the class I dread basically the most. The one I had with Alex.

I go to the corner and as I am turning around to it, I bump into Skylar.

"Uh Clay," she makes the awkwardness even more. 

Why is she here? I mean in the hallway?

"I-I was looking for you actually," she answers my own question in my brain, "I am just wondering. What are you up to lately? I mean I know with the whole Ale-"

I stop her right there," Skylar let's just not talk about it here." I mumble out. I am done raising my voice about this type of things. I am just done with all of this to be honest. How many lives have to be in danger in order for this school to realize we all are doomed to hell?

She nods, "I know. I think we both know and need to just go. Go away for a while. I mean from school. Like what we did the other day?" she scratches her hair a little from the back and I shake my head.

"No that was a one time thing. Skipping school with you.  And Tony. Skylar I can't keep up with this. It's fucking useless. " I try to go around her but she makes me stop. Her lips are pursed and she looks at me directly in the eyes. 

"It's fucking useless to have a friend when you need one?" she crosses her arms, "that's definitely not the Clay Jensen I once knew."

"Yeah well everyone changes. Even I," that doesn't make her stop the stare as she gets closer to me. 

"Come on. Back to school after this? Are you really sure you are ready?"

Tony probably wonders where i am at now. 

"You really think everyone is fine after everything?"

I know I am not. 

I nod and grab her arm as I walk with her to the exit. The same exit Hannah Baker once took for the last time. Only thing is I don't know if it's going to be my last. 

I let go of her arm as we make our way down the street past the school, "fuck anyone who wants to stand in our way. If we don't want to go. If they care that we are going to harm ourselves because of this-fuck them. Fuck the principal. Fuck Mr. Porter. Fuck-"

Skylar starts chuckling, "okay this is definitely not the Clay Jensen i knew." 

I turn to her. "Let's go some where that no one can find us. No one will ever know where to look, how about that?"

She nods, "I would like that."

I grab her hand for comfort as we run. I know where we are running but I don't know if she knows. I take her to where I first fully listened to Hannah's first tape. The bench. I begin to tell Skylar what I was feeling when I heard what Hannah had said. She hugs me. 

Hugs me. No side hug. No simple remark. No sympathy. Just a hug. A hug that can mean anything but I see it as a friend. 

She was right I do need a hug. 

"What's going to happen now?" she asks. 

I break the hug," what do you mean?" She can't be serious about what I think she might be asking could she?

"What will happen now that one of the people who was on her list is gone too?"

That's when it really hits me. I can't even begin to process what everyone is feeling by this point but I know who all the people are. I know what they did. And Alex was just one of the smallest but according to Hannah he started it all. What if he started it all by this? Besides Hannah taking her life first. What if it's a pattern. 

"We need to help the others as much as possible. Help them go through this," I begin to tell her. 

Skylar looks at me and stands up, "You can't change their perspective."

"but we can," I stand up too,"what if we can change somehow?"

I remember Tony saying I can't play God. But what if we can change how it all went down. What if we can change time?

Time....

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