I had tsunamis in my eyes as you left, a sudden and devastating flow of water pushing through the windows to my soul. I never knew how much one could miss another, it's an entirely new concept. It's not like a dog who needs his bone, or a child who needs her doll, it's like I am the sun and you are the gas I need to burn bright. I am an astronaut and you are my air tank on the moon. Every breath I take hurts, like I'm breathing in shards of glass. My chest is heavy and I hate you, I hate you so fucking much but I love you. I love you, I love you, I love you, don't leave me here drowning in sadness and hysteria and pain. Dont make me go through this alone. In sinking deep, deep into the cold blues seas with cinder blocks on my ankles and I've given up the fight to get back up, because you're the one who put me here. You're the one who's launched me into the downward spiral. I take one last breath, inhaling the salty ice water, letting it all go black.
What I didn't expect was to wake up. I shouldn't have. There's no possible way I could have survived. But the blinding white lights and the annoying beeping of my heart monitor showed the impossible. A miracle they called me, somehow surviving my dissent into the water. Then, a name. One I'd never heard before. He sat in the corner of the room for weeks, just watching me. I began to get used to waking up to see him in the corner. I got used to seeing the mop of curly black hair, his tan skin contrasting amazingly with his green eyes, his long always brushing his cheekbones. His cheekbones were so sharp, just looking at them for too long made you bleed. His teeth were white and straight, dimples marking his cheeks. He talked to me, told me he was gonna jump too. He had impeccable abilities to hold his breath under water, and when he saw me going under he had to save me. Something between us clicked, and suddenly he became everything to me. You and me, we were too different. You were the sun and I was the moon, we would never collide. But he's the sun now, and I'm the earth. He lights up my world. We fit together like puzzle pieces, and I've come to find that my tsunami eyes were the best things you've ever given me.
