It Could Be More

Chapter 5

"I'm so stupid." I say to myself, either way Nick heard me and gave me a look. "Stop saying that. Scott's a piece of shit and you just need to forget about him. He's obviously never going to change, can't you realize that?!" His voice had rose and I just look up at him, my eyes swelling with tears. "Yeah I have realized that, but that doesn't change any of the memories I remember about him. It doesn't change that he's the only guy I've ever loved. I miss him. I miss the guy I met when me and him first started talking...where did he go..?" I cover up my face and lightly start to cry. Nicholas realized he had obviously been the reason I started crying and he came over and held me. "I think he probably didn't ever really exist and even if he did, not all relationships stay that same, you know?" I look up at him, my face all red and puffy and I just hug him, not because I was forgiving him or anything, but for the fact that I really needed a hug. He hugged me back and then began to play with my hair. My head just lay there before I became exhausted from crying and I quickly passed out.

I looked up at Scott, his hand on my cheek. He's flashing a sweet smile and his thumb rubs my cheek. I smile and can feel a blush creeping up on my cheeks. "I love you." He said and my heart fluttered. "I lo..." I got cut off by a girl. I was suddenly pulled into the distance and I saw him kissing her. Holding her, touching her in ways he should've only touched me. How could he betray me? Does he like watching me break? I turned and saw Nick smiling at me. I ran up to him and hugged him as tight as I possibly could. "Scott will never hurt you again as long as I'm around, I promise." Promise. The word made me sick. I looked up to look at Nick, but I saw Scott instead. "I know you still love me and I love you too, I love you more than anything." He said. Love. He didn't love me, but my heart just keeps coming back for more. Just a single touch from him made me weak. Just a single look from his hazel eyes made me break down and want him. I start to back away from Scott. "Stop..you're not good for me..I don't need you in my life anymore." He chuckled. "Maddie you know you're gonna come back. You always have and you always will." My heart sunk when I knew he was telling the truth. I should've left the moment he broke up with me the first time, but I didn't. I had given him everything. I gave him all my love, I had given him pictures and presents and everything I could've possibly given him, yet I still wasn't good enough. It was my fault. "Wake up and come over to see me." Scott said and kissed me.

I shot up in my bed and realized it was 5 am. I still had a couple hours before I had to get to school. Nick was sleeping peacefully in my bed and I smiled over at him. I had gotten up and started to sneak out of my room not wanting to wake him. I looked down the hall and saw a light from my moms room. "She's home.." I whispered and smiled, then realizing Nick was in my bed. My eyes shot open and I went back in my room. I covered him to make it look like it was me sleeping, and then I quickly ran downstairs not making a sound. I opened the front door and walked across the street. I walked over to Scott's and I lightly knocked on the door. His dad opened the door and smiled, "Maddie? What are you doing here so early?" Scott's dad had always liked me and he was upset when me and Scott had broken up. He never knew why, Scott just lied and said I had left him to focus on school. "Hey, I was wondering if Scott was up, or here at all." I smiled sweetly and he nodded. "Yeah, he's up in his room, he's sleeping, but go ahead and scare him awake." I smile and then begin walking inside "Thank you." He nods and I begin to ascend the staircase. "2nd door on the right!" I hear his dad call and I wave at him, motioning that I understood. I turned right and I walked to his door. I opened it and saw him laying there. Just his boxers and shorts, like always. I heard his light snores and it reminded me of when we would fall asleep together. I walked to the bed closing the door behind me and I sat on the side of his bed. I ran my hand through his hair and I smiled. When I had first met him he had a Mohawk he had dyed it several different colors like red and blue, but one day he just shaved it all off and now it was growing regularly. I laid down beside him and cuddled my face onto his chest. I think I was waking him up because his arm wrapped around my shoulders and when I looked up I saw a small smile on his face. "What are you doing, Maddie?" I thought to myself. Leave, stop coming back to him, he's a cheater, he wanted her, not you. He'll never only want you. I felt anger build up inside me and I felt my nails digging into my side. I pulled my nails away when I saw a small little puncture wound that had a small stream of blood coming out.

My pocket started to buzz. Scott woke up all the way and looked at me. He smiled "Maddie what are you doing here?" He leaned forward and kissed my forehead. He heard the buzz again and grabbed for my phone. "Why is Nick calling you so early?" My eyes shot open "Nicks calling?" I grab for my phone and he pulls his hand back. "You came over to be with me right? Then pay attention to me." He sets my phone on his dresser and he holds me against his chest. "I missed you." I said without meaning too. "I missed you too baby." He said and I felt him playing with my hair. My eyes grew heavy once again and I started to drift off.

~A Few Hours Later~
I woke up and looked around confused. Where am I? I looked up and then remembered I was at Scott's. He was fast asleep and I looked up at the time. 8:57. I was late for school. I quickly jumped up and I walked over to his dresser and picked up my phone. I looked at my notifications. I had about 8 missed calls from Nick and several texts asking me where I was. I sighed and began to walk to the door. "Where are you going?" I turned and heard him sleepily get up. "I'm late for school, shouldn't you be in school too?" He smiled "I don't start till next week." I nodded "Let me take you." He said and I shrugged "Sure, just hurry, I'm already late." He quickly stood up and put on a shirt, he slipped on a pair of his shoes and smiled. "Lets go." I turned to walk downstairs and I felt him touch my ass and then pull me backward. I could clearly feel his bulge pushing against me and he moved my head to the side. His lips kissing up and down my neck, I let out a soft moan and reluctantly pushed him off. "Come on." I lightly pushed him and ran downstairs.

I had arrived at school 15 minutes later and I walked inside. It was passing period and I started to walk to my 2nd class, but Nick spotted me and came running up to me. "Where were you?! I woke up and you were gone. I was worried, Maddie." His eyes were soft, but I could tell he was truly upset. "I'm sorry I worried you." I whispered and I pulled him into a hug. He hugged me back tightly, his head lightly laying on mine and his hand rubbing my back gently. One of my friends, Jordan, came running up to us. "Hey did you hear Scott's back in town?" I nodded "I heard he's having a party later in the week you should really come." I shrugged "I'll think about it." She smiled sweetly and looked over at Nick. I knew she liked him and she always had, but he never had much interest in her. "You should come too, maybe we could catch up." Her hand was on his cheek and her thumb rubbed his lower lip. He pushed her hand away "Yeah, thanks Jordan." He falsely smiled and then she walked away. "Come on I was already late, don't wanna be late for this class too," I joke and drag him along with me to our next class.